Nothing fills this void. There are things that take your mind off of it but that void is there. I don't know what I would so if it weren't for the company, love and affection of my dogs. They are right next to me, feeling their warmth and their licks help me. Still, the TV is on and the noise of the world goes on, the sirens and the traffic and the birds and the barking dog across the street all make their noise but there is a quiet I here before hearing these noises. It rings in my ears muffling everything else. The noise I am missing is his voice. He had a valve replacement and you could hear it tick. He would come up behind me when I was on the computer and I could hear him tick. He would yell at the TV for some sports play that he felt was a stupid move, he would fire up his motorcycle and it would rumble in the driveway. I am not even two months into this loneliness. I want to hear him tick, to breath, to laugh. I was going through my pictures and came across a video I had long forgotten about. It was when I got my first web cam and was trying it out. He is there, his smile, his laughter, his voice moving about the livingroom. Like he was still here.

I certainly can relate. It is only 3 months for me. I wish I could cry. I can't, all I do is feel so lost. We were kids together.
and always together. Yesterday I nearly lost it when I had to shell nuts. My hubby used to love doing that. I dont know how I will handle Christmas. Do you have plans? My friends want me to their home. I would rather stay home, I'll see. Hang in there and try your best, I will too. Benie

Oh how I remember what it was like at four months. Yes two steps forward and one step back. Sick in the stomach, can't breath and so alone. But I can tell you that there is light at the end of the tunnel. With the help of the Lord, I have learned to cope with the pain. I still have pain but I can function with it. I have times that I can laugh and times that I can cry without getting hysterical. It has been 16 months for me.
God can help you, just lean on him. It takes time and sometimes more time for you than others,but trust me it will get a little better. DS along with God has gotten me this far.

You are in my prayers.
Phil 4:13
Christine

It has been two and a half years for me and as others say, the feeling of being alone does get easier to deal with over time. The huge loss will always be there, but it is crucial that we make a new life for ourselves without forgetting the wonderful love we had.

It is very tough seeing reminders everyday of the loss such as people discussing relationships, holidays and general sharing of life. I've gotten to the point where I'm numb and don't let these things try to bother me. It's horrible, but to survive, I have to keep my perspective in order or I'll be angry and sad all the time.

We have lost a large part of ourselves that brought such joy to our lives. Without that partner, we have to try to focus on the good things that we have such as health and relationships.

It's been a year for me and though some things have become easier, I still find many others difficult, for example, seeing elderly couples going about their business together: that is what I wanted! And seeing young couples arguing about silly things: I feel like butting in and telling them just why they need to be good to each other, if they love each other that is!

I am so sorry for your pain from the loss. Not certain I can add anything to what others have already said, some excellent comments here, but for me, when I get home, from work, and begin to feel that horrible lonliness and cry, I turn on the TV, usually a show that comfots me, like Law and Order, and do the best I can to make it through until bedtime.

Sending you lots of hugs,
lespreludes

(((Marie)))
Just a tad over 6 months ago I lost my best friend, lover and one heck of a great husband to me and dad to our daughter... tears wouldn't stop, sleep wouldn't come, I felt like I just couldn't go on another day... it does get bearable, you can make it through another day... everyone will reach that day at a different time, but it is ok to mourn for as long as it takes... I still just break down out of the blue, I easily start to cry at the silliest things, but thats ok... tears help wash away some of the pain... one day at a time...one tear at a time.
Hugs
Cj