I love those signs.......Everything about what you're feeling is so raw right now. Slowly, slowly it will become more and more clear as the heaviness of losing your love clears.

I'm at 26 months and it's becoming a bit more clear.......misty clear but thankfully, the heavy wisps of clouds seem to be clearing.

It will make more sense in time. We're all with you.

Roz

I've had nights like that, too ... I think we all have. It's heartbreaking to lose our spouse, and it's normal to want to be with them.
Your pain is so raw, and it's unfair.
It may not seem like it now, but it will get better.
I don't know if you're a religious or spiritual person, but I believe I'll be with my husband again some day. Some day we'll get all the answers.

Hugs,
Janie

What a wonderful experience to see a cardinal as confirmation that your husband is still with you! May that bring you some comfort.

And he will keep sending red cardinals. A truly beautiful sign. Continue watching for them. They bring comfort and his love.
Mine was and still is, feathers and black birds. Sending healing thoughts.

Signs abound . . if we have watchful eyes and an open mind. Whatever you believe in will come to fruition. I think my J comes to me as a Raven . . and he often brings his friends along! It's become somewhat of a joke around this household, but I believe it, so who or whatelse matters? If it gives you comfort, go for it and don't let anyone sway you from what you believe in. Just my three cents. Hugs, D

Bring on the Cardinals!!

If it weren't for the signs, I don't know how I would have made it this far...

The best sign for me is knowing he is with me smiling with every step I take. Sharon

My wife's Chinese name is little bird. Each bird chirping reminds me of her, and I hear that a lot recently. Hugs from Hong Kong, Tiger

Don't give up, whatever that means. I don't think we have that choice. Even if we curl up catatonic, it is an action/reaction. Better to choose life.

Love the cardinal. I think there are Angels. Not the kind with wings, they are messengers, usually but not always people, who come at at just the right time to teach us something, challenge us, hold our hand, give a sign.

The last verse of Jimi Hendrix' "Castles Made of Sand" - the others are worth reading http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/jimihendrix/castlesmadeofsand.html

There was a young girl, whose heart was a frown,
Because she was crippled for life, and couldn't speak a sound
And she wished and prayed she would stop living, so she decided to die.
She drew her wheel chair to the edge of the shore, and to her legs she smiled
"You won't hurt me no more."
But then a sight she'd never seen made her jump and say
"Look, a golden winged ship is passing my way"
And it really didn't have to stop...it just kept on going.
And so castles made of sand slip into the sea,
Eventually

A couple of times, when I was listening to the radio, lamenting over my husband's condition, his passing and what I could have done, didn't do, etc...I kept asking why? Just then, Let It Be started playing..this happened twice. Janie, you reminded me of that when you said someday we'll get the answers...