Our emotions runs in circles in grief. As time passes, the circle gets bigger but eventually we do arrive back at the same place. Hugs.

I’m so sorry Msbklyn. I know how you feel. I have been going along fairly well for a couple of weeks, then boom....I had a hysterical crying breakdown. I’m not sure what triggered it. I know I will never get over my husband’s passing and I still love him with all my heart and always will. It is this feeling of unending loneliness that is the hardest. Family and friends can’t fill that void within me. Bless you this holiday season...it is a hard time for those of us who have lost our loves. (Hugs).....Linda

Hugs to everyone here, Linda, I completely agree that friends and family just can't fill that void, and the void feels so big that it will swallow me. I know it's only been 2 weeks ago since Scott passed, but it feels longer and feels like yesterday. I cannot imagine what my future will be like - will I ever feel joy again? Will I ever feel contentment and happiness again? Because right now it seems impossible.

Kim....I feel the same way....I can’t imagine a happy future for myself. I am older(64) and feel it is too late to start over again, and I really don’t want to. I just want my Donn back, and that is impossible.

I remember 2 weeks out from his death. I was a mess. I felt like a big raw wound with my emotions all over the place. It will be a while before you move out of that part. I do find moments of contentment daily, but most days I still cry. It’s been almost 4 months now. Coming to this site has helped me a lot...I hope it helps you too. God bless....Linda

My heart goes out to all of you. My dear soulmate Jennifer died on October 27th of this year. I have the good memories but they are bittersweet because I do not have her physical presence to interact with:-(I talk to her throughout the day when I am home and ask her for strength as she was so strong during her 8 1/2 year Journey with multiple myeloma. I realize that I have lived more for her than for myself over the past few years. I have no regrets but my life feels empty now :-( she will always live in my heart and I will cherish every memory we experienced and created together. I do not have any family Within 200 miles of where I live. My only sense of semi normalcy comes from going to work 5 days a week with coworkers who have known me for 10 years. Jennifer was a registered nurse and so am I so I'm able to focus on others problems when I am at work at least some of the time. My counselor says I am working through this but I feel such pain and loneliness I have little motivation to do anything. There are moments when I feel a bit of peace knowing that Jennifer is in my heart and her loving energy is in me and around me. My heart goes out to everyone who has experienced such great loss. I appreciate reading others experiences and knowing that I am not alone in this horrific process. The greater the love the greater the grief.

I am sorry for you Msbklyn. I too visited my husbands grave on 12/7/17 and it was tough. This would have been our 16th wedding anniversary. I placed flowers on the grave site and just cried. You know my love for him is as strong as it has ever been. The holidays are the toughest. Stay strong. God Bless.
Elizabeth

So sorry for your loss. I am only 5 months out still lonely without my soulmate I no longer work I took my one year leave of absence then had to quit my job to care for my husband, I will never regret spending as much time with him as possible