Hi and welcome! It's a group that no one wants to join but it's also a group that once you're in this club you'll thank the heavens that you found because truly, it can be a lifesaver.
I'm so sorry for your loss. Here, you are among friends who know the pain that you suffer. You can read posts that apply to your situation and that I'm sure you'll relate too. If you feel like it, you could also write and vent on any subject that's bothering you or helping you. Please feel free to join in at any time. Someone is always here and willing to help at any given time of the day.
Again, I'm really so sorry for your loss.
Strength and courage to you new friend...
Big warm hugs coming you way!
Darcie

Total lost Ness. .who I thought I was I am not any longer. Who What Where and Why..I feel as though a child stuck in the inner depths of the jowls of Hell..but then something will happen and your laughing and shocked that it's coming from you..the Guilt cause you even laughed this is a new feeling..New Feelings..then there's the self hate loathing part..and then you think something is beautiful. .self discovery is happening for me right now..Hugs and Welcome to our group of New People...

Thanks for having this group. If only to read, or vent it is nice.