Marie - I'm so sorry you are going through this. Hard to believe, that is for sure. ~ you take care

Marie - This is the most difficult journey that we will ever have to take on. Grief takes as long as it takes...........I'm so sorry that you have to go through this; I know how difficult it is. Please know that prayers and thoughts are with you.
Hugs to you,
Christine

Marie I will be thinking of you this Tuesday. I am at 2 1/2 years now, for my 1st and 2nd anniversary (I always feel funny using the word anniversary) of my husbands passing I tried to have a plan so that I wouldn't end up completely alone. I hope you have family and friends who will be there for you. Sending hugs. Denise.

One year after I lost my husband we all gathered together and let balloons go with notes attached saying whatever we each wanted to say. It was a beatiful sight and releasing them felt like we were sending messages up to heaven. A bird flew over to the balloons and soared with some of them for awhile. A picture of the bird soaring with the balloon is in my pictures here that I have uploaded.

The thing that I remembered the most at one year is I had thought that if I could survive to one year, I would magically feel better and be able to move on. It's not that way at all. It took longer for me to begin to feel some sense of which direction I would move toward.

For a couple more months I felt like I was in a boat and I was paddling as hard as I could with one paddle and going around in circles. I posted about that then.

Then I realized that I needed more alone time with my memories and needed to just be still for awhile. I was still.

I am feeling more at peace now. I guess I am learning how to live with the knowledge that I will always love my husband. I will always miss him. It will never be fair that he died so young. I will always wish he was here. I would always give anything to have him here. I will always have moments of intense grief, but that will be less and less often over the months and years. I will never forget him..that would be impossible. I will make a special place for his things and our special memories. Life will never be the same. Though I hate that he is gone, life is what it is. I will keep putting one foot in front of the other. He would want me to be happy. I do want to live and I have a lot to live for, and I will do so much good still in my life.

No one can ever replace him. I will carry him and our love in my heart forever....that will never change.

hugs to you as you keep putting one foot in front of the other.
-Diana

It hasn't been very long for me, so certainly I can't give you any advice. Just know I share your pain and commend you for sharing your feelings. This group seems so supportive and comforting. One day at the time and sometimes one hour at the time.

It has been a short time for me as well. In thinking about the end of that first year, I understand renewing that feeling of being lost. Celebrate your husband's life rather than his death. Reflect upon the things you two enjoyed most, savoring those memories. Kaaren

Wow! I can't believe it will be one year tomorrow. It is hard. I am hoping to turn on the upswing of grief. My one year anniverasry will be on Nov. 15 and I am not looking forward to it at all. I hard a hard morning today. I am going out to do one or two errands. Just getting out of the house is good for me. It is depressing with no job prospects yet but I am trying. I only need a part-time job. All three of us are looking for jobs: my friend Carol, brother Don and myself. Life sucks at the moment. From Diane