Yes. Now, my time bump is today or every Thursday. He died suddenly 33 weeks ago today. I am managing so much better but the day and time still seems to surround me. I guess that is why I came here today. It helps to share and care with others here.

It does help to share. I have been a widow for awhile, and it seems I have more to say now than I did in the beginning. I am glad you shared today, and I know what you mean. I counted the days, the months, everything. I do like sharing also, because here I'm not alone. I laugh when I think about it, but to me, you are all on the same alternate time line. There was before, and there is now.

Well Nana, I'm not sure I can entirely relate to your time warp experience, but you got me thinking as the Sci-Fi fan I am. In many ways, I find myself living in an alternate universe. So many similarities, yet one major difference and many subtle differences. I don't think of this so much as the Twilight Zone, but more appropriately as the Grieving Zone. Trouble is, I can't return to my old universe, but I'm not stuck here either. No, there is a third dimension waiting for me to heal enough to create for myself. Time is all that stands between me and the future that awaits me. See, I told you I like Sci-Fi. Made perfect sense to me! ~~~ Scottie

I love the way you put it...bump in the time line...so accurate...the world just the same but not the same.

Yes, i think we all have experienced that. Somedays time goes by so slow, and others, it's as if time flew. I am now reveling in just having tiime go by slowly, so I can accept all that is on my plate. I'm in no hurry for time to rush, and my view of people and the world has changed, for the better in most instances. I dont rush as much. My sean was always trying to tell me to not worry and that it;ll all be ok, and now I find that I wished he was here telling me that now, because I would definetely be a better listener... much love and big hugs carla

I know what you mean. Trying to find a new normal -- but I hate to think of it as normal when I was so happy when he was in my life. Feels more like a detour maybe?

Yes I get that...I feel like I am now a time traveller...Attached to a bungee cord that brings me back to the present time...I will always travel back as so much of my life , lessons learned , and other events are tied to that dimension...I try to look to the future so that I can fight my way to it, using the knowledge I have learned along the way...

The present , where I sit now is not so bad but it is not a place to stay put...It is full of things to conquer yet, stress and worries still... which makes me look to back to the past when two of us were conquering those present time issues...If I sit to long in the past though, it jeopardizes the steps taken the last 3 years to arrive where I am now in the present so as hard as each steps are towards the future time frame of my time map, go forward I must...

Most days I am good, but allowed to wallow, that bungee cord seems to have a cement block attached to it so that my progress is slow moving...

But the most beneficial time these last few years are my break time...my break time is when I allow the grieve to hit , wash over me, pick myself up and see where I have been, what I have achieved and where I am going...

It isn't that there is a time warp, just an elusive kind alternate time. The time before, and the time after. To me it never is rushed. It is just my perception of time. The time with him, and the time without him - a time bump.