Shedding a few more tears. Hope these memories bring a smile one day!

MissmyAnne, I so sorry for loss of your love..I know what you're saying you miss the "US"...It's been 20 months since Dennis passed suddenly in his sleep of a heart attack and I found him.Dennis passed on a Sunday and we were planning to leave on vacation the following Friday.. Someone said this too me after Dennis transitioned..Man makes plans and God laughs..So true and yet sad at the same time...I can tell you with grief you have to straight through it there are no short cuts, sad to say..Don't let anyone tell you, you should be over her in x amount of time..Cry, it does help and is normal.. Talk to her, ask for signs I've had many from my skeptic...See your doctor, I finally had too five months in, for me anxiety was the worst..i got something to help me and I'm glad I did, I had never taken anything stronger than a Advil..I no longer take anything.. Remember the good times I find my smiling more often when I do now...Don't be afraid to ask for help..And don't feel guilty, thinking there was something you could do to change the outcome, it is such a useless emotion, and its only purpose is to torture us.. Regret is another one, we are always thinking about what we will be missing out on if they were still here, what might have been...
But, I can tell you it does get better, it will become a new kind of normal..I found what helped me also was to develope a daily routine, sometimes repetition can be good..Come here often there are lots of wonderful people who are willing to listen and share their experiences..They literally saved my life...
Take care, and remember when someone we Love becomes a memory, that memory becomes a treasurer...Peace and Hugs...Gail..

Don't cry because it's over..Smile because it happened..Dr. Seuss...

Sounds like you surely loved your wife. It's so nice to hear from the men here that they reach out and share their feelings and what they miss about their spouse. It appears you two were very happy and it's just those sweet moments that are missed the most. Simple things.
I miss my husband acting funny and his wit was unbelievable. I miss his talents and his laugh and watching him work on projects and train a horse, weld on the ranch and tell me stories about his time in the military. We were married for 28-1/2 years. Oh the mornings are still the worst for me. Having my coffee alone and hearing him call out "coffee woman", or I could sure use another cup of coffee...or can I get some pancakes this morning? Oh life. How you have left me battered.
I hope you keep remembering those wonderful moments. I wish you the best.