Dearest Michellle, I usually know when I getting ready to geizer my emotions, it sits just above my throat, my voice quivers, then it's time to release. usually happens every day that I cry a little bit, but my wailing sessions are usually once a week, until I had this last dream off sean telling me, he had to go away. Now, I cry a little each day, and I do cry once a week, but it's reducing just a bit. Cry as much and as hard as you need. Thats how we cleanse our souls and heal. I talk to sean all the time. I must be going crazy lol. I know Sean doesnt want me this sad, and he wants me to push forward. He would be saying aw baby it'll all be ok and it'll all work out, smile and go do something fun. He use to say that to me all the time. Now, I'm starting to listen, with his help and god's (sorry if i offfended someone) You jus helped me realize it's ok to still cry and not be afraid to let it all out. with love, and a gentle hug carla

Oh Carla, my heart breaks for you also! I know my husband wouldn't want me to be this sad either, but I am not likeing this journey one little bit. Who could have imagined this pain would be so intense? Hugs and Love, Michele

Yes I completely agree, this sucks. Just imagine what our husbands would be going through if we were the ones who had passed. My husband was told growing up, suck it up, you baby.. dont cry...and Im really the only one who has ever seen him cry, and when I had surgery he was so sad, and worried, because I almost died. Lost 4 pints of blood, I do believe he wouldve been grieving so hard and beside himself too. Im just glad for all of you, to walk this journey with me. Gives me such hope. Love ya michelle,

Hi Michelle, Over the months I've gotten to know what a nice, funny, wonderful person you are -- in deep grief and tremendous sadness because the love of your life is gone. I can tell by his picture that he was a jokester, probably could always make you laugh no matter what. I am sure I would have enjoyed meeting him -- a one in a million kind of guy. So you just keep those tears flowing girl - don't worry about how long it's been. You have every right to miss him. And I believe it is the tears that mend our broken hearts. Love and hugs, Scottie

The first time Steven ever seen me cry was in 2014 and he cried too with me. I think I was on the verge of getting ready to have a nervous breakdown. My grandmother had just passed away in October 2013 then my mother n law got very sick and December 2013 and passed away exactly 2 years ago today. We buried her on January 23rd then Steven had his 2nd massive heart attack on January 31,2014. I ended up at the ER myself a few later thinking I was having a heart attack but I didn't. I was very overwhelmed with a lot of things at the time and just broke down and he started to cry with me.

Ive never been the time to get very emotional as far as actually crying but moreless sad.

I have had a lot of that since he passed but prob not as much as I need too. One thing is I haven't really cried in front of people and even my therapist said that ,I haven't seen you cry yet. Maybe its because people overwhelm me with the words that you are so strong and maybe I feel because they cram that down my throat that I feel that I don't have to let them see the other side. I can cover very well.

Not to worry about crying after 9 months, I cried for 9 months pretty much full time. I cried after the first year and the second year, but the scar was beginning to form and the hurt seem to lessen. I was learning to live without him. I didn't like it, but I knew I had no choice. Even after many years I have moments of sadness for what we had, but the scar has covered the pain and I live my life (the one I have, not the one I lost ) and can smile with gratitude for what we shared. You will too. Sharon