I have woken up with the same feelings, too. Time somehow has eased those feelings and fears in me a bit.

I think, for me, it was because when I woke up everything was "real" again. By this I mean, my husband was gone and never coming back. That's when all the fear, panic and anxiety set in, again. When I wake up now, I take a slow deep breath before getting up. Time will and does help to improve those feelings. One day, one step, at a time.
Peace and hugs to you!
Geri

i am right with you on this one. Mornings are overwhelming me. Monring has always been my most anxious time anyway, and Kevin used to help me wake up and feel a little calmer.

Now I wake up and I feel disoriented, then the sadness sets in because he is gone, and like you said, it is real. Then fear of facing my problems and fear of doing the wrong thing in dealing with them. Top that off with an hour alone in the car in rush hour traffic.

I have tried getting up earlier so I can have some time and process what is going to happen that day. Sometimes that helps, sometimes it does not.

Mornings were especially hard for me too. I agree with the concept that reality hits and we are truly alone. There were times I actually thought I heard my husband here and that complicated my waking up even more. It takes time for our brain to comprehend this tragedy we try to accept.

I found taking a pad with my coffee and writing my feelings a helpful way to begin my day. Sharon

I do the notepad thing like Sharon. It does ease a lot of the feelings of panic and isolation. I write out my feelings in letter form to God. It gives me comfort to do it that way. You can direct yours to your husband or you can direct them to yourself or somewhere else. What ever works for you.

My worse time was the morning. I remember that feeling of dread and terror, but also could not explain why or what I was terrified of.

Mornings have always been the worse for me too. I'd wake up and feel so distraught and sick almost. Sleep has taken you away from it all,for awhile. Then BAM you wake up and it all sinks in real fast. Then if you don't work, it's how to fill your day...that's when I feel the most anxiety. Sometimes I have to take a Xanax. By afternoon it begins to pass and eve is not too bad. Sometimes I almost hate to go to bed because I know it will all repeat in the morning

I can definitely say yes , I have felt panic , anxiety in the morning. I can tell ya it does get better tho and go away. last year at this time I had to deal with , 1. surgery to remove a malignant tumor in my small intestine then 2. the death of my husband 8 days later . after surgery I went home to this big house my husband and I own. the responsibly for me was overwhelming to say the least. I never felt anything like the anxiety I would wake up with . like what do I do first? where do I go from here ? talking helps , I am currently going to grief share meetings and also to a therapist . also working full time. so , just know that yes it will get better , in time. good luck to you , my friend, take care . Diane

I never felt a panic, but my wife was the alarm keeper. I never woke up to one. She was my alarm clock. Since her passing I have never used the alarm on her side of the bed. I use my iPhone.

I did have a very sad feeling in the mornings, I have to say it has moderated a lot in the past two years.

Mornings are bad for me, also. I am on medication for anxiety, it does help some. It can also be a low blood sugar problem because of an empty stomach.

KK

I don't feel panic so much as sadness. When I wake up I think of Paul and wonder did this really happen? Then realize, yes it did. Then I gather up the courage to get out of bed and start my day.

I have been having a lot of anxiety in the mornings when I wake up. I have started seeing a therapist and also started on medication. It is getting a little better, but it was really bad for a few weeks. I am having a hard time sleeping. I wake up at 4:30 am every day...and I just pace around and feel very nervous. Seems to get better by the afternoon, and I'm okay in the evenings. I think it's due to the fear I'm facing about my future. My husband's death has left me with a lot of things to deal with as far as the house, finances, being a single mom, etc. It's overwhelming and frightening. My husband and I were very close. We did everything together. I really miss him

We all have experienced a great loss....and at the same time, subconsciously, I think that maybe it is all unreal, a bad dream, how can it be, how could this have happened, NO, it is not so!!! I don't care how much time has gone by, I still find myself being startled by the realization that it did happen, my love is gone, I am alone, it is not a dream.
Mornings are not good. That was a special time for us....slowly awakening, getting him coffee, showing our love for each other. So, yes, I awaken now and it all comes back to me....WHAM....it is real. I do know how it feels....and I wish there was a way to gracefully move to a better place each day.....maybe with time passing? It is hard....we all know that....I just hang on hoping it will get better!

It is a bit reassuring to know that several others have or have had similar feelings. Sometimes I just feel like I am going crazy, because some days are pretty good and others are still terrible. I wish I was young enough to have a job, it might help to stay really busy. Maybe not though. This morning was busy with bank business and shopping followed by putting things away when I got home. Now this afternoon the loneliness is awful again. Sometimes I just want to run away, but of course that would solve nothing. Thank you for listening.