I feel your pain brother. Sorry for your loss. How long has it been?

Just keep pushing forward. I have my bad days, and my worse days. I love to ride the highs, but I hang on for the lows. Three months for me on Thursday.

Prayers sent.....

3.5 years for us.
Thanks for the prayers, we definitely need them.

It's traumatic enough when in the routine of normal life, we open our eyes one day and see our kids, well, for the big kids they become. Toughest is when the empty nest syndrome hits when the last one is out of the house. I always pho-phoed that one. Why on earth wouldn't the parents be ecstatic about finally having the house all to themselves? Empty nest syndrome is real, alright. I never pho-phoed it again once I experienced it. I don't think I ever gave grieving much thought. Pretty much figured that was something others do. Had to learn the truth on that one the hard way too. Give thanks to God always for your daughter. She is a gift that will be with you all of your days. A gift to be cherished, that's for sure. ~~~ Scottie

I'm sorry for what you are going through. Your comment about graduation resonated with me....My husband passed suddenly away in March and my oldest graduated from college May. It was an extremely emotional time- I felt the normal proud mom feelings - he achieved so much-but it was mixed with intense grief and sadness for me, for my son and for my husband who was missing this monumental day. Someone had told me that graduations were commencements- beginnings- my son's beginning of a new chapter- so I tried to focus on that thought.. For really for me, seeing my child experience such sadness at a time that should be full of joy was heartbreaking. I know he would have wanted his dad there more than anything. Sometimes parentd can't make everything "all better" and that is a tough realization for me.

I'm so sorry for the pain you're feeling. It's not fair that your wife can't be here with you guys. I miss my guy so much. His birthday is coming in a few days and that was a time I loved to spoil him and show him how special he was to us. I want him back. I know life isn't fair but this just plain sucks. I got out a picture from his last birthday. He had turned 50 and he was holding his favorite cake. I remember that night so fondly. We had a great time I'm so grateful for those memories. Big hugs to you and your family.