Hi Honey

Know what you mean about expecting our loved one to walk through the door...Its been four month since my Kate passed her in Edinburgh Scotland...I just miss Kate so much..it sometimes does not feel real at all....I understand how you feel...hope you can find a little peace amongst all the sadness...keep writing on here...it does help..

Lawrence
Edinburgh Scotland

I'm so sorry for your loss, but I'm thankful you found us here on DS. It's been almost 2 years since I lost my wife, and I still feel the same as you do. I had that feeling last week. I was at a professional conference for the week and when I got home it seemed like she should be there to welcome me as she did so many times before. My wife was cremated as well and the funeral director asked me if I wanted to see her before they did it and I turned down the visit. I know she is in a different place, and she was no longer within her body. I didn't want to see her that way.

Take care of yourself, he would want that for you. Come here often, the kind people here have helped me a lot and will you too.

Jeff

My heart breaks for you. The loss right now must feel completely devastating. It has been ~13-weeks since my wife Kim passed, and I still have days like this. As I have seen many posters on here allude to, learning to cope is like a roller coaster or the ocean as there will be so many ups and downs.

I also understand how you feel at night. I actually had to have my doctor prescribe meds to help me sleep. No matter how many days I went with little/no sleep, I just couldn't without help. Between all of the new demands as a single father, the devastating loss and loneliness, it was more than I could bare.

I hope you have an easier night, and I will keep you in my prayers.

Scott

Thanks you all. Yes he passed in a car wreck on May 23. So I am left to take care of our 4year old daughter. His family has really stepped up and they are helping with her, but it is just not the same. I have dreamed about him but often times cannot remember the dreams. We have be knowing each other for 12 years. We finally had a child and through all of our ups and downs we finally got back together last January. We were in the process of getting married on Valentines Day next year. So to go from planning a wedding to planning a funeral has been absolutely terrible. Thank you all for your support. I send you all love and hugs!!!

I'm at almost a year and someimes have to remind myself that this is a ride I can't get off of. My Tim will never walk through the door again. It brings me to my knees when that reality hits me.
I know I am in a really bad place right now. I just pray for strength and take baby steps.
Hugs, Sandi

I'm so sorry for your loss, I know how hard it is. Reach out for all the support you can, it will help. Be blessed.

I know the ache you are feeling and I'm sorry. The saying "my heart aches" is an understatement. Big hugs to you, Sandy

Wow! A year and you still feel like this?? I know some say it gets better with time but for me sometimes it seems as tho it gets worse. Im so glad i found this page and was recommended to this group. Love and hugs to you all.

Hi I am so sorry for your loss! I completely understand what you are
saying. My husband passed away 1 month ago and I know it still
has not fully hit me. There are moments when it does. and it literally
hits me like a sledgehammer. Even though I was able to see him
before he was cremated I am still struggling believing he is really gone. God bless you! Julie

Thoughts and prayers are with you. It is awful.

I am so very sorry for your loss. Please visit with us often read and share your feelings it really does help the healing. Everyone here is wonderful and caring and understands how you feel. Love and Hugs-Jewley

I'm at 16 months and still have a hard time truly feeling she is gone. In my mind I know it's true but my heart still doesn't want to believe it.

Take care,

Russ

I was holding Paul's hand when he passed. It took my about 6 weeks to stop thinking he would be coming through the door and this was a mistake. I think we all go through that.

I am at 11 months in my grief, and there are still times when I think to myself "This can't be true; Sam can't be gone." And then I have to bring myself to the harsh reality once again.

I do believe that things get better, but for me, it's been an extremely slow process with many relapses. I have accepted the relapses as a normal part of grief.

Please continue to come here to DS. I hope you will find it as great a source of friendship and understanding as I have.

Wishing you peace . . .

Hi honey I am so sorry for you. What a tragic loss for you and your sweet baby. God bless your hearts. I'm glad you are here with us you will find peace and comfort here just keep writing posting. No one here judges no one here condemns and we all support one another so lovingly I promise doing this helps.
My husband died in Nov last year from brain cancer at 48
I am mother of six 25, 18, 8,7,6 and the baby is three. My oldest is married and gone and my 18 year old had returned home from college so now I have five again. I'm so glad to read you have family who ace stepped up and are loving on you and the baby. I don't have that I care for my sweet husband through his 4 1/2 year battle where four of those years he really did remarkably well defying all odds and just being the exception to every rule. We had and still have our church family as my husband and I believe in Jesus Christ as our Savior and he loved The Lord and I believe God sent His family to replace blood family neither of us had.
Let them do and be there for you it's so important for you in your healing and for your little one to see her mother loved and supported it creates a safe haven for her that not just you give but your family and she won't be able to put voice to it now but later she will tell of how comforting it was to have them near for her and for her mother.
God bless you both
Cindy