Yup. This is the place nobody wants to be. At least because of the reason we all ended up here. Death. And it sucks. And grief. And it sucks. And depression, you guessed it. So we do our best to keep our heads above water and just do what we can to hang on to each other. It's good just to know somebody is out there who gets this. Ain't nothin' normal about it. But not one of us is alone (well, maybe me, I've had some extremes. Good people here. And you are safe. I've read many a time. This isn't about winning a race. This is about survival. You just can't hurry it along. It takes what it takes. Scottie

Thanks for replying it made me feel that I am not alone. today is a new day and I'm thinking positive and hoping I wont cry again.. I did on my way to work just for a couple of seconds and I made myself stop. Hope you day goes well.

My day went better then yesterday but I'm home now and I am missing him so much I can't stop crying. I thank you for praying for me the last time I had an online prayer he has died the next day. I had a lady that was praying for me and him and he died. I asked for God to heal my heart and he will and I know I have to help myself it's just so heart breaking right now. I miss him in so many ways. I will also pray for you and your friends loss.

I understand your frustration. The first year after my husband death I was shocked to be still so very sad. I then realized that our love grew over time and a year didn't feel as long. Truthfully we don't return to the life we had. I couldn't without him with me. I made the decision to something anything every day. I walked in the mall. Enjoyed sitting by the river with a book. I even went for coffee alone. That was the hardest, coffee we shared together.

Remember only his physical body is not here. His spirit remains in the people who loved him. Sharon

I lost my wife 4 months ago. I've been going to a grief class and that seems to help. I would recommend it it makes you feel not so alone and gives you ideas how to deal with feelings and emotions that go along with this grieving. It's just not easy I have a lot of days like you have. Grief class has taught me that I have to work through the grief there is know stuffing it or going around it. Easier said than done. I will pray for you. God has a plan for all of us and we don't know what it is. With his help we will get through this.

We hold each other up here
We care here
We listen here
Nothing is too great or too small here
We are HERE for each other

It has been 4 years for me
Life has changed forever, we move on in our own unique ways
We grieve
We hurt
We adjust
We have challenges
We have obstacles
We change

All this takes time
For some longer than others
One foot in front of the other
One minute, one hour, one day, one year @ a time
Blessings to each one of us on our new journey

Thanks for everyone's support...just right now something has changed that I cant seem to figure out why now I'm so sad all the time. I was doing so well. I would only get sad from time-to-time, but this has been for a couple of weeks and I am sad and crying throughout the day. The loneliness is the worse and not having him to talk to about my everyday things that I did at work and I cant make plans for anything anymore.

I know the sadness you are feeling, I lost my husband almost 5 months ago. still miss him every day, especially at night when I can't touch him. we used to hold hands and pray together. I still pray, but it's just not the same without him. he had his prayer list memorized and never missed anyone on it. the holidays are hard ,maybe that is a reason for your sadness right now. praying for you

I am not even on auto pilot any more. At least that propels a person forward because you just do what comes next. I feel like I have been lost in the shuffle at this point.

its almost like I have this hole inside my chest and I cant swallow because im holding in my tears so hard... because I work long hours and I have to make discussions for everyone in my department all through the day and I know they see me with tears they just act like this is just my norm... my eyes show my pain because sometimes I don't know how I am functioning... I go to the restroom and look into the mirror and just say to God to keep me strong and thank you.

Broken heart just about sums it up. I felt insulted at the the 1 year mark when people would say this time of year must be hard as if youd been ok the rest of the year. I think a part of your heart will always be broken but the heart is capable of adding love. Just my opinion.

yes its broken heart...today I woke up feeling better... I think this is like a roller-coaster... the emotions are sometimes all over. Ive been trying each day for the past week to read something that gives me uplifting meaning to my life and a better understanding of why im am so sad. thanks for your replies it does help me.

I think all of you all prayers have helped me. Today was a good day. I feel like myself and I'm enjoying it. My prayers are with all of you.