So many us know your pain. It seems endless and is crippling at its darkest moments. Well-intended family and friends will recommend therapy, medication, exercise, and so on, and all positive efforts will have some benefit. My wife of many years died two years ago, but in spite of my efforts, I am still crippled at the darkest moments. But what I can tell you is that uplifting spiritual moments will occur that will overpower your sadness and grief.

Your husband may have "died" but he is still with you in spirit. Whether you are a spiritual person or not, occurrences are going to happen to you in your life (as they have in mine) that are not just coincidental or unexplainable, but are jaw-dropping and frozen-in-your-tracks kinds of occurrences. No matter how you or doubting others might try to explain away such occurrences, you will instinctively feel the guiding spiritual presence of your husband. I can tell you this from my own experiences of the last two years. Even skeptical people with whom you choose to share such moments may not question the fact of their occurrence, but skeptics will question your interpretation of the occurrence. Why do skeptics somehow warrant credibility? They weren't even there. For you, the moment will speak for itself.

I have experienced those moments and believe they are guided by the spiritual presence of my wife. It has been valuable to write in detail to myself the specifics of these rare moments. I believe that God created life, and that after "all the days of my life, I will dwell in the House of the Lord forever".

I will echo what happyparker said. There will be spiritual moments. This is where you go from believing to knowing. My husband transitioned 2/5/13. I say transitioned because I don't like the word died. He left the pain of this world and transitioned into the next. So like many here I looked for "signs". I got jealous that some saw their spouses or talked to their spouses or dreamed of their spouse. It was just a big nothingness and I felt so lost, so alone. Then one day something happened. I saw one cloud in the sky. The only cloud and it was in the shape of the number 5. 5 the day of transition. That day I passed out in the middle of nowhere and fractured my leg. But I knew I was going to be okay. I knew the 5 was a message and he was letting me know he was near and I would be okay. Since then I have found other messages in the sky. It's different for everyone. Some get balls of thread. One got pennies left on the porch steps. Just wait, watch, look, listen. A message will come to you when the time is right. It will be bitter sweet. You will know your loved ones soul lives on and is letting you know to believe and the joy will also be pain because you want so much for just one more chance to hold them in your arms.

Yesterday i felt okay i smiled when i through of you i remembered happy times and funny things you do.But today i feel so very sad i think of you and cry. I'm missing you so very much and still asking God why? I don't know what will happen when i face another day.What will tomorrow bring? Will i cry on be okay? This roller coaster of emotions is worst ride of my life. Nothing can prepare you For the never ending strife.I may not handle my emotions the way i should do.But i still thank the lord for the time i had with you

Better...So sorry for what you are going through.

It has been 6 months for me and I still cry almost daily. Not as intense and often as the first month or so, but it still hits very hard at times.

For me, the best help has been finding a small group of widowed people locally who have helped me and help me every day. They understand, empathize and just get what I am going through.

Be kind to yourself...don't rush anything and don't think it will go away anytime soon.

I don't have any real words of wisdom, this is awful however there is not much we can do but find fellowship and survive until it is a less awful

So sorry for your loss. My husband died suddenly last year and there are days I just want to cry too. I hope you find peace and comfort from your family and friends.

Time is on your side,it takes time to learn how to cope.Been over 4 years since my last husband died and i have learned how to be alone.I busy myself with work and gardening. I am not saying it is like it was for me either But there are times when i catch myself being happy and I enjoy feelings of it now and then .How i cope is being grateful for everything even though still now i do not know why I am still here but figured i might as well try to be content with even the little things since I am not sure how much longer i will be here either.I enjoy the trees and the seeing of life Everywhere and think hey I am alive too lets try and if all else fails i have a joint.

I lost the love of my life on 3/27/2020. We were married 33 years I miss him so much. Not only losing my husband but I lost my mother 12/22/2019 and she had lived with us for 11 years. Im so sorry for your loss.

I lost the man I loved more than anything in this world, the man I was supposed to spend the rest of my life with on 6/19/20. He was killed in a car accident and right now I can’t begin to imagine how to live this life without him. I cry numerous times a day every single day. I have very supportive friends and family but none of them know this kind of pain. I’m glad to have found a place where people understand. Maybe this will help the healing process for all of us.

dear bbmp I lost my wife on 6/8/20. I'm trying to get my life back to. I feel miserable. But went back to work to escape the house. I do better not at home. Like you I shed tears and still talk to her. I do have friends that that have lost their wives. They said at this stage of mourning it's best to keep busy. It doesn't stop the hurt just moves it back for a moment. Hang in there (God bless you ). And yes there are people that understand what you and I are going through.

Hi! I am 46 and just lost my wife to cancer 15 days ago. We were together for 26 years and she was my first love. My life has been rocked to the core and I feel like a part of me is missing. We worked so hard to build a life we loved and now it all seems for nothing and life seems pointless. The only thing that I hang on to is that my wife wanted me to be happy and to look after myself mentally and physically. I think if you adored each other like we did then they would want you to be happy. I find when ever I’m ok I feel guilty. I’m so confused! This probably doesn’t help anyone.

I lost my whole world 2 months ago. Together 12 years, she was my everything, my best friend, my support system, my soulmate we did everything together. I can't drive, or go grocery shopping or basically anything without having a breakdown. I'm so sorry for your loss, and I wish no one else had to feel this type of pain, it's cruel.