Big hugs Andrea and Happy Birthday. I lost the love of my life 3 months ago and when my birthday approaches ... it wld be 4 months since Charles passing. His death May 20, his birthday June 1, my birthday September 27

Will not be easy

Andrea, everyone here feels that way. We are all in search of relief from our pain. We are all trying to find a way to rid ourselves of the loss of someone we loved and who loved us back. I think the trick is to not isolate ourselves even though that's our greatest desire. I also think we have to change the way each day passes. I have been in a constant cycle of nothingness. It's like that movie Groundhog Day every day. We have to move forward no matter what. I think if we don't we just start dying inside until we are just shells of ourselves. I know we will all be together again in heaven and that's what makes me go on even when I don't want to. May God bless you and wrap his loving arms around you.

Andrea, it been over two years for me since Dennis passed. Sept. 12th is my birthday, which also happens to be our anniversary. We had worked out a code to happen on the first anniversary/birthday of his or mines passing, to let who ever went first would make happen to prove there is an afterlife. Dennis was the world biggest skeptic.
It happened in a big way Andrea, which I've posted on here before. I've had so many signs from Dennis as have my daughters that he's still around. He sent me a sign on Valentines day, also. I said I guess I won't be getting anymore yellow roses on that day, I told him it been two Valentine days since you passed. That day my neighbor, who Iives a couple of blocks over that I barely know stopped by with her husband. When I opened the door they were standing there with two yellow roses. She said I don't know why but, I was a the store and saw these yellow roses and thought of you and had to get them. This is funny because this came from a woman who Dennis never cared for. So there's my sign he's still around..
I been feeling overly sad this passed couple of weeks and I know it's because of my birthday/anniversary coming up. The only way I've found to deal with it is just let it happen and if you feel like crying, cry. I still talk to him all the time..I think it's just missing him that's the hardest.
The everyday interactions.
Take care Andrea and Happy Birthday...;)

"Don't cry because it's over.. smile because it happened"..Dr Seuss

birthdays and holidays are hard. my husband died almost two months ago. his birthday was the 25th of august.

Andrea, on the sixth, it will be eight weeks for me. This three day weekend has been the worst for me. I used to be the happy go lucky guy, the guy that is usually strong and in charge of things, kind of the leader of the pack. My daughter must've cought me crying six or seven times this weekend. There is a usual group of about 15 friends and family or so that were all expecting me to put out the usual call for a BBQ and swim for the holiday. No way! I just can't do it. Just like a log of the posting I have read on this site. I feel extremely down when I'm surrounded by a bunch of people, especially friends and family who are all having a good time, laughing horse plane and expecting me join in. Am I going to feel this way for the next 2 1/2 years? I just don't know if I could endure this pain for that long. I'm thinking about you today. Just like other friends on this site, I wish I could give you a real hug. By the way, my wife Tracey birthday is on or was on June 1st. Thinking of you, Dave

Thanks to everyone for your comments, Wishing you all peace and happiness. Andrea

Wurld, you hit the nail on the head. A world of emptiness is what I feel most times upon waking. . Uncertainty everyday about where to go from here...My husband was the main reliable one I had to talk to/interact with. He never failed because love never fails and he loved me. I think he cared the most. Now he's taken away to leave a vast void...

I know Mama would want me happy as well. I have called her Mama since our first born. I could probably count on 1 hand in 29 yrs I used her name. I made her my life from our first date on. I even bought the car of her dreams when we just begun a few months. Of course we were talking marriage and we were promised. I have known her though for yrs. Now there is just nothing but a huge crater, pain in my chest from missing her. People try and talk and say some nice things, but in reality none of the brings her to me which is what I want. I don't know how any of us are to get through this when we all loved someone so deeply. Truly I died when she did, and I am sure a lot of you feel the same. I go to the grocery store and find I cant deal with it and just leave. They all know me , as its a small town and understand. I wish there was a pill to take to take this pain away.

The Dr. Suess saying? Yes, like the "Better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all" saying. It seems my whole lovelife is summed up in that! But yes I'm thankful in everything...

I also know how everyone feels. Its been 1 year and 4 months since I lost my soul mate. I feel bad
when any special day comes around.Today is my grandsons birthday and I wish he was hear to shar this day with us.I always right on the card from Grandma and (Grandpa from heaven. I didn't do it today
because I thought I had done it long enough,my daughter said no mom please write from grandpa from heaven because he knows and he is here with us, I opened up the card and wrote from Grandpa in heaven.

Andrea, I also agree with wurldtravler. The isolation is the worst. Some of us here, myself included, are still very early into our loss. It's perfectly normal to feel that way, but it can't go on forever. Will I still feel sad 2 1/2 years from now? You bet I will! I loved my husband with every fiber of my being and his loss has devastated me to my core. I don't think you can ever get over something like that, nor should you be expected to. Not allowing yourself to turn into a shell of who you once were is indeed the key. You said yourself that your husband would wish for you to be happy and I know that my husband would wish the same for me. I feel like it's my personal responsibility to honor his legacy in that way. A part of the person that I am today is directly attributable to him, and I don't ever want to lose that part of myself because, in a way, it keeps him alive. I have to carry on and know that he would be happy for me and proud of me for it. Sending comfort and hugs to you! I hope the coming days are better for you. <3 Anita