Your words are so true. I said the same thing the other day. To have a great love and now it is gone. How are we supposed to live the rest of our lives without what we once had. It is an overwhelming thought. I wish could say somthing encouraging but all I can do is agree with you.

Suzanne, Your right it is overwhelming...if I think of some encouraging wonderful words of wisdom I will let you know...Hugs, Lauri

I am feeling said with you.. Only remmeber, if Brian is not physically present in this reality, it does not mean he is not with you in other new way.
Also, why wouldn't you try to write a letter to him about this day, and about your thoughts and feelings.
Maybe even for Matthew this can be healing... but it is something to approach with causion and possibly to consult with a child therapist.
Writting about special days, is like having so much missed sharing with them, and I learned that suppressing this unfullfilled need and desire delays healing.
I keep writing, talking to him when it just me and nobody's around.
Just a suggestion because we have to be creative to heal.
warm hug to you and to a big boy Matthew :)

It's alright to have "One of those days." We have all suffered a great loss and are unable to share those good moments with our soulmates. All I can say is what I always ask God for myself. "Please give me peace of heart, mind and soul to make it through each moment without my husband. Hugs - Wendy

I'm sorry that I haven't been on here very much over the past few months. I've been busy packing my house and moving. But I know exactly what you mean. I'm so sorry for you and Matthew. I don't know how I'm going to make it for the rest of my life either. I only make an effort every day because of the kids.

But I do find that I have a real real bad few days and then the next day is a bit better. I guess we just have to hold on for those better days.

Hugs to you Lauri.
Julia xx