I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my husband on 4-23, and my world wil never be the same Everything we loved to talk about or watch has no meaning either. Your feelings are natural. I get the loss of hope for the future. May you find peace. I pray for that myself.

Hello mate I lost my wife just over 3 weeks ago 30 years of marriage in fact my wife funeral was on out 30 th wedding date everything you are saying is exactly how I'm feeling everyday is exhausting I just can't see how I can exist with out my soul mate.

Hi I lost my 58 year old wife 3 weeks ago I came home from work to find her dead in the garden in the morning she was laughing and on Facebook 30 min's later she died suddenly natural causes I know how your feeling there seem no reason to carry on its just nice to spk to prole going through same thing.

I lost my wife of 26 years on 4-26,she was 49.
Yes it's hard to imagine how to go on living without her, but,.. I am finding
a little hope with the help of my friends here on DS. I can't relate or talk to anybody that hasn't experienced loosing a spouse. (not parent,not sibling,not dog, not goldfish, but the one true love ). Please find a good grief councilor, one that has lost a love one if possible. It will help you a lot. Also, let your children share in your grief if they are strong enough to do so. My adult children are not strong enough to deal with my grieving and sometimes I need them to be. Take care, You are in my prayers.

I am sooooo feeling your Pain. My husdand died 7/2/2018 after a 15 month battle with brain cancer. I am trying to stay busy and when I can spend time with family. Try to not let the grief consume you. I know how hard this is. I was involved with an online cancer support group and one at a local church and it really helps to talk to people who understand this kind of loss. My heart goes out to everyone. Take care

I lost my husband of almost 30 years 9/30/15. It's hard to believe it's been almost 3 years. Most days now are good. Sometimes I have a hard moment or even a whole day but I've learned those times will pass. I miss my husband all the time but I am able to cope better now and the awful physical pain is diminished. I also never thought I could nor did I want to survive in the beginning. I stayed as busy as possible to avoid the pain. I found at the one year mark that I needed to allow myself to go through the pain to move on. I couldn't avoid it. I've learned to be able to be alone sometimes and not sink into complete sadness. One day at a time is the best way. Sometimes one moment at a time. Deep breaths, taking care of our physical needs helps get through. I find when I'm tired I get more emotional. I force myself to rest and try to take care of myself. This site has been a tremendous help. I needed to know others understood this pain and had survived. We all get how awful and devastating this loss is. It's not fair and it sucks. Not everyone in our lives will understand what we endure. People here will help you. I wish you all peace today and hope that tomorrow is a little bit better for each of you. Marybeth

Welcome to the site. My heart goes out to you. I remember those first days without my husband. It was like flying on autopilot. I went from thinking somehow I would wake up from this nightmare to thinking God had made a mistake and taken the wrong one. Writing your post will help I think, not in some miraculous, healing way, but by keeping you connected to people who really do understand and with whom you can speak honestly. No one here is going to scold you or tell you to "move on" or "get over it." Grief is such a long process. It is filled with ups and downs. Mostly downs at first, then little by little the up days begin to increase in frequency. You will get through this. I know it doesn't seem like it now, but you will do it one step at a time. I am going to pray for God to comfort and strengthen you one step at a time, one day at a time.

I lost my husband of 34 years on May 10, 2018. I have been on such a roller coaster ride of emotions. Even though we knew for 2 1/2 years he was dying from cancer, that still didn't cushion the shock of loosing him. I have no clue who I am now that I am not a wife or caregiver. I miss him so much. I wish there was some magic answer as to how long this grief and pain will last. I know it will get easier with time and I know God will get me through this but it sure hurts.

Lost my wife of 21years unexpectedly on Feb 2. It is amazing how much I miss the everyday things. You are numb and that is normal. Try and concentrate on just today. I found it impossible to think about the future as it suddenly changed completely.

Your children need you and you need them. I think my sons were and still are my greatest comfort. It is going to take time to be able to start to function. Give yourself that time and be kind to yourself.

Prayers for you for comfort and let the memories of your wonderful,life together keep you these early days.

I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my soulmate 18 days ago he was my everything too and everything you're describing is just how I feel right down to having wonderful kids But I do get up every day even when I don't want to because I know Barry would want me to don't do the things that make you sad Which at times seems to be everything I know Like you he was my best friend we never fought we like the same things we finished each other sentences now there's just a big gaping hole. But I can hear him now telling me to knock it off and pull myself up. And without knowing you I think she may tell you the same thing if she were here . It's not going to be easy it's a hard thing I think in the world to go through my parents are gone my sisters are gone my brother is gone and now my husband at 64 Who's never been sick a day in his life. I held his hand and begged him to please come back. But let me share something with you we live in an RV sorry I guess I live in an RV I use a walker and for distance a wheelchair I've never driven this rig And he did everything I was the copilot we travel all over the US and I'm going to learn how to do this by myself it was our life goal. We built dollhouses and everywhere we went we donated them to children's centers. We planned on doing 100 I just finished the 82nd one and I'm going to do the other 18 in his memory. And as long as I love him he will always be with me and I will always love him and sometimes the quiet makes me want to scream but I hold it in because I know he's tell me to get a hold of myself. Will keep you in my prayers and everyone else out there who is struggling through this grief

hi Mate,
Well I lost my wife on the 13th June 2018 almost 20 yrs marriage, and I understand where you are coming from, but my wife had terminal cancer and battled for 5 years. I lost a little bit each day, but the pain is still there and I have two should to care for as well as myself. You have to hold on to it and don't stay in the darkness, and think that your life is over, they wouldn't want you to think and be like that. talk to people go to the hospital do some volunteering. You need to get out of the darkness of this before that's where you will stay and it is not a good place.

Mal

Hi..no one understands us better than us here.
I lost my dearest husband barely 7months ago.
Pain scale is the same! I'm beginning to hate myself for feeling this way.
Just stay functional..stay hydrated..manage to eat and sleep.
So easily said than done..but I myself is battling the same!
Hugs ..

I wholeheartedly understand how you're feeling. I lost my husband of 31 years on June 8th of this year. The day before our anniversary. I have no family. I have no children. And every day I have meaningless days and endless nights. I find it harder and harder to think about how I'm going to live the rest of my life. I also pray at times that I would never wake up again. What you're writing sounds almost the same as what I keep telling everyone how I feel.. I can't watch TV because of the shows that my husband and I used to watch together and comment about. I can't listen to the radio because of songs that bring me back to all the places where I was happy with my husband. And knowing it will never be the same again. I can't even touch a pot or pan because it reminds me of the night before this nightmare happened when I made our final dinner together . I can go on and on.. Our lives have been changed indefinitely. I pray for peace for you. I hope we will all be able to get through this together. Debra

Sorry to hear about your loss.. I lost my husband 3 weeks ago. We were together for 20 years and he was 42. I find the pain is getting stronger as the reality sets in.

Places that we went, things we have done, food that we had, songs on the radio, brought back bittersweet memories.

I don’t know how am I to cope without him for the rest of my life. The uncertainty is making me panicky.

Hi Jonboy,
Lots of raw emotion here. I, too, lost my one true love of 30 years. June 14, 2018. Cancer. What you are feeling is very familiar. The feelings of hopelesness and absolute despair. Your heart is shattered into a thousand pieces and you will never be whole again.
I often wish God would take me as well. I feel as though my life purpose is gone. We were soulmates. I have no desire to live on in this world. Although i have a son, I tell myself he will be fine without me. Ive had to travel for work a couple of times recently and prayed for a plane crash. Although i dont wish others to die. Your mind and your heart play lots of terrible tricks.
I just started seeing a grief counselor today. I make myself take walks. The first few weeks are so hard, unbearable in fact. There is nothing you can do but push on. Keep telling yourself it will get better. Remember, your beloved doesnt want you to suffer. She wants you to eventually find a new happy place. Just keep moving. Maybe find a counselor and or a bereavement group. Be gentle with yourself and take care of yourself. Some day, we will all get to a place where it doesnt hurt so much.