Hi,
I'm so sorry for your loss. My husband passed just over 2 years ago. He also had a long, horrible battle with cancer.
It will help you, in your grief to vent and share your thoughts here. Please take care of yourself......gentle hugs, Sandra

Thank you Sandra..........I am sorry for your loss as well. For some reason, I am having trouble remembering anything other than our last year together. I know we had 30 wonderful years BEFORE the cancer but right now, I am haunted by the memories of his last days. Hopefully in time I will be able to remember the good times.

Hello Luckydaughter, I am sorry for your loss. This is a good place to post, read and share. My wife, Amy, died on June 28, 2016, very unexpected. We were married almost 35 years. I never thought that I would cry every day, but, I do...
Be kind to yourself. Take things as you are able, one minute, one hour, one day at a time. The memories will come pouring back to you in time, and that will be good.
Hope, Blessings, Peace and Prayers for you for today and for all those that are hurting..... Mark

Thank you, Mark. I am sorry for your loss of Amy. I cry every day, too.

Hi, over three years for me. My husband had cancer. In the beginning I also had trouble remembering much that had gone on before but I think it was just that my mind needed to process the illness and his death. Sometime in year two I was able to remember all our years together. Coming to this forum really has helped me and I encourage you to keep coming back.

My husband had COPD and other health issues as cancer in the lungs and the prostate and bladder then had a cardiac arrest but i saved him and now he is gone..never to return ever again....we have to get used to this. It is not like divorce...its like your whole everything is done. But I know If you take it easy and try to think positive it'll help..your changing again..

Hi onebrokenheart. Thanks for your reply. I think you are right.....in time I probably will remember the time before cancer. I am glad you are now able to recall happier times.

Hi Shelda. Sorry about your husband. Yes, I am trying to think positive.......I think that will help.

I leaned the hard way to go oh so slowly..don't rush..I read alot too and enjoy funny things online and quotes...I save them all the time my phone is full. I wake up at night and pretend he is in bed with me..but I have been doing that for a long time now as he hasn't been able to do too much with his COPD

So i hug myself in bed and have huge pillows that take up more of the bed then I...but it helps me as i love to cuddle

Hi, luckydaughter,
I, too, lost my husband to cancer; he was diagnosed in September and gone the following March. Since then, I have also lost other family members to cancer. It has been six years for me - sometimes, it seems like yesterday; and, other times, so long ago. I found a widow and widowers group that met at a local hospital about seven months after my husband passed. Just being with others who understood the profound loss was a great help to me. Friends and family mean well, but unless you have traveled this road, you truly cannot understand. Keep coming here for support; you will find people who truly care. Roxanne

Hi luckydaughter,
I am so sorry for your loss . I too lost my husband due to cancer. His battle started in 2013, and he was re-diagnosed at the end of January this year. After a lot of treatment and surgery he had no signs of cancer at the end of June, but at recheck on August 5th it was widespread with new large tumors. We were told 6-12 months at that time, the next week we were told it would be probably by the end of the year. He died 25 days after that recheck. On August 5th. I am a hospice nurse, and no matter how much you deal with dying and death... Nothing prepares you for the loss of your spouse, your partner, your best friend.
I too am hoping to find strength and support through this group. I am truly sorry you lost your husband and are going through this. There are no words to say that can comfort you, I know this. People ask "what can I do ", and I have replied that the only thing I want they can't give me. I
I have seen by this group that there are others who feel as I do, that I'm not losing my mind or feeling out of the "norm". I hope you keep coming here for support. I am new as well, but hopefully together we can pull each other through this terrible darkness.

I'm sorry for your loss and I lost my husband to lung cancer 10 weeks after diagnosis. It seemed surreal even with the diagnosis. My thoughts were it's not true. We had celebrated our anniversary 2 months before and thought our retirement days were beginning. Welcome to the group and hope you find strength and support with us. Sharon

Hi Roxanne, sorry about your husband. I am glad you found a support group to help you through that time.

Hi Cindi, so sorry about your husband. I am a nurse,too, although not a hospice nurse........but all nurses have patients who die. Being a nurse did NOT prepare me for the horror of watching my husband die a slow, horrible death, although I imagine it would have been even more frightening for someone who had never seen such a thing. I hope you find some peace/support/comfort here........I hope I do, too.