I am so sorry for your loss, I wish there was an easy answer to lessen your emotional pain.
If you read some of the previous posts on this site, that might be of some help,
A very nice lady in this group had also mentioned griefshare.org where you enter your zip code
to find a support group in your area. I'll say a prayer for you! Sending a compassionate hug your way~~~ Lucia

I'm so sorry for your pain. This is an excellent site. You will receive support from the people who share here. Try to take baby steps in healing. It does take time. May strength and peace be yours. Hugs, Dolores

So sorry for your loss... hugs

I truly feel your pain, anguish, emptiness, shock, the list goes on and on. This is going to become the absolutely worst time of your life. But you will get through it, one day at a time. You have to focus on the essentials right now. Get your sleep, and help with that from your doctor if you need it. Drink lots of fluids because you will dehydrate. And eat. Force yourself to keep eating. You are in shock right now, and that is your mind's way of protecting you because it just process yet what has happened. After my shock period, my mind began to shut down, meaning my ability to think degraded significantly. Whatever you are able to delegate to others, that is a good idea now. You will in no way be able to do all you did before. I call it "circling the wagons". Focus on all the wonderful times you two had together, those memories will last forever. You are in the right place. Healing your broken heart takes lots and lots of time. Eventually, your intense grief will begin to subside from constant to waves. We all either are or have gone through it. But we make it with each other's help and love. Writing about it helped me more than anything. Scottie

Thank you everyone for your support and helpful info, I am really trying to stay strong, it was my first day back to work today and that did help, trying to get back to some seance of normal even though I am breaking inside.

My thoughts are with you.

Iam so sorry for your loss . I understand precisely where you are going through .
I miss him every Day, Night , every moment, when I can think and not working .
But we have to go on , your Love one would like that for You ,he wouldn't want to see you crying all the time .
I have that feeling also very often , I lost my husband 6 months ago , but He always disliked it when I cried , he said it makes me sad ,and you get wrinkles, joking always ...
So when I have such a moment, I think of his words and pull myself together ...
So I think of you and wish you all the strength to go on , think what he wants you to do ....
Big Hug from me and our son ( 6 years old )!

Feel so sorry for your loss. My beautiful wife passed away without any warning early September. We can only read and listen to other peoples experiences to help us through this indescribable pain. X

I am so sorry that you have lost your dear husband. As others have said, keep coming here for support as you will find others that understand and will support you. Hugs to you, Roxanne

i am so sorry. i still miss my hubby and all those things too has been 10 months. sending you a hug and will pray for you. it is hard.

I'm so sorry about your loss. I know the feeling of it being fresh. My fiance was my everything as well. The best we can do is vent and try to live the way our spouse would have wanted us to. Plenty of love your way.