Just try and hang in. I lost my husband in November to cancer but with little warning. I think I actually started to grieve when first told the terminal diagnosis. I continue to have good and bad days, days when I almost feel normal again then it comes back with a thud........xx
I understand the lack of support as time goes on, people do get back to their own lives. Take heart that you have your son standing by you. I too have a son but he lives 2000 k's away. My daughter is closer but, like you comment, I don't want to wear her out with my worries.

You say you have the Lord in your life, that is a wonderful thing and I too believe. It has and continues to be very difficult to understand why these things happen so unexpectedly but leaning on the Lord has helped me a little. I do try now and read a devotion, a prayer or a bible verse before getting out of bed in the morning, I find it does help.

I have also joined a support group, the jury is still out on that one.

Take care and take heart, much love, K xx

Thanks so much for your reply. It means so much when there is someone who knows your pain and can give encouraging words. Yes I also read devotions and today's spoke to me. God was saying he is with me and when I decide on a course and it is in line with his will there is nothing in heaven or earth can stop me. I am so impatient and wanting things to happen on my time and such a hurry. God will f or me will happen in his timing and not mind. I learning to give it to God and stand behind and let things happen when it does. May God bless you and hope your pain ease up soon

I don't know what advice I have...it's less than a month for me...I'm trying to get up every day, get dressed, pick up the house. I'm trying to get out of the house, get some exercise every day. I'm trying to sleep (not doing as well at that) basically trying to do the 'next right thing'

I cry every day, but I also laugh every day. I pray and lean on the Lord.
And I sing...wonderful praise songs, and lost and lonely love songs.
I don't think this is 'something ill get over', love doesn't end because someone dies; but I also realize that I'm not the 1st woman whose husband died. This is a natural part of life. I believe this IS what I signed up for when I took my vows.

I'm trying to stay grateful and keep my expectations small. When things go wrong, and believe me everything went wrong last week ( see mad journaling about DMV) I actively seek opportunities to laugh at, or to be grateful for. I am not in control of all things, or even most things.
I work at having a good attitude. No, it doesn't work every minute of every day,....but it does work.
Any other ideas? I'm listening.

Thanks so much for your reply. I love your comment on staying grateful and keeping my expectations small. Also seeking opportunities to laugh at. Any small suggestions you or anyone has is much appreciated

I'm going through the same. Wife was gone in a month after being diagnosed with terminal ovarian cancer in October. I unfortunately turned to alcohol to coup. Was on a bad bender for two months. But for the past five weeks have be sober. It hasn't been easy. But joining this support group helps. I even starting going back to church to help me.God is a great listener so do not be afraid to throw you burned apon him. Stay strong and take one day at a time

Understand completely, lost my husband to pancreatic cancer Aug 2016. I don't hear from his family and no real support to lean on. Just trying to make it thru daily routine. The loneliness is over whelming even when in a crowd.

I have earlier made a comment and have just come back on line and read others comments. I feel like crying now, it is so so tough without the loves of our lives. That roller coaster ride has just taken off again and I'm charging down the other side. I can write quite matter of factly one minute and feel like cussing and blinding the next.........I guess this is where we really do have to practice what we preach. Hugs to all here xxxx

So sorry to hear of all the recent losses. I lost my husband 9/30/15 . He passed away after spending 30 days in ICU following a cardiac arrest. He was 59 and we were across the country in Seattle having just completed a cruise to Alaska. We had no warning signs and I was the one who initially provided CPR. It's been a tremendous roller coaster. At this point I wanted to give you all hope. Yes it is still difficult and lonely but most of the time it is becoming somewhat more tolerable. The deep physical pain has subsided and although he is in my heart and mind every day it feels different. Time does seem to help. I know In the beginning I too was impatient , wanting to know when the pain would be over. It's only been very recently that I can say I've felt more improvement. It's been very gradual. I still don't look ahead too much but can think of a time when I may. I know how important it is to hear from others who have been in our shoes. I wish you all peace on your journey. God Bless

Thanks to all for the real talk in this group. Like I said I just started expressing my feelings in the group yesterday and I already feel improvement. I to am impatient but with the help of all of you I don't feel as anxious. Right now I am learning to take one day at a time and know I can't control everything. If I am having a bad day work through it and keep working because good days are coming. Again thanks and continue to share with others