Me too, but on March 14.. what a complete shock to my system.. my world did a 360 degree.. I know how you feel as i am a total reck. Few will only understand how you feel. The waves of grief, the bawling crying day and night for the love of your life., the denial, the remorse, the i should have done this and that. There are days you want to give up and other days you feel great. i don't think anyone will ever get over the loss of someone you love so much. i think the grief subsides. And you shouldn't for it is quite normal to grieve, so grieve. i have cried at any place or time. i am very proud of crying for who i love. How many will ever experience real love. i have. i stay out all day, keep my mind busy but still that is not the answer, for all we do is think about our loss. Please just cry... he deserves those tears.. But try and walk for miles and eat regularly. Sorry, i am writing this fast. .... i will ask you to hang in there... as i am just doing that. Find someone who will just listen to you. I really know how you feel and for me it is the worst suffering of my life. What is the goal. The goal is to return to normal life while keeping your loss in your memories. Let him influence you .. reach for the stars. Casey. Caseykcrichards@gmail.com

Hang in there! This is the most horrific experience a person can have. I too lost my husband to a massive heart attack on April 8th, 2017. We removed life support on the 12th and he passed before the song I had queued up was over. I have found a home and moved back with my children. I do so love being back with them but not this way. I too feel like I am trying so hard and that I am just not doing all that well. It's hard because you try to be honest and share your feelings but then you know that folks can't take to much of it. They love you and want you to be okay. I wish I could just sincerely accept it, but I daily find myself saying this can't be real. I depended on him for so much. Today I cut the grass at my new place for the first time. I always have enjoyed cutting the grass so this is not something I am now doing reluctantly. The thing is, I would think... Oh I need to see if Joe can use the weed wacker and edge along this mulched area, or I wonder if it would be okay to prune those lower branches... I'll ask Joe. I can ask but there will be no answer.
Please know you are not alone and there are unfortunately quite a few of us who totally get what you are experiencing. I am not and have never been a really super religious person, but I do find myself saying and thinking I will pray for you, please pray for me. Lisa

I am so very sorry for your loss. I lost my husband suddenly in Feb 2015. He was only 58 years old. His family had a history of sudden heart failure so needless to say, he went to doctors, exercised regularly, and we ate very healthy. And still he collapsed while on a treadmill and died instantly. He was the best thing that ever happened to me.
To be blunt, it sucks! Maybe in the past 2 years, I didn't cry a total of 20 days. Some days are better than others. I try to get from one day to the next with the help of my children, family and friends. Don't be afraid to reach out to them.
I hope you'll find the strength to get to those better days.

Sorry for your loss, it is good to hear you have relatives that you can be around.

Some days I wish I would have sold this place immediately.

Hi Sandy. I am truly sorry for you and know what you must be going through. Realize, you are really just in the beginning of your grief, if you are like most of us. It takes a while. Right now, just do the best you can to survive by taking it day by day. I remember it was about a year in when I decided just to get on with whatever life awaited me. Trouble was, I was in no way ready to build a new life. Grief is a strange creature. I can look back on when I thought I was doing pretty good but I had no clarity of vision and made more mistakes and poor judgment calls in that 2nd year than I thought myself capable of. But that's how I've always been, the ole gotta do it my way done got in my way. Remember, slow and steady wins the race. Just give yourself time, time and more time. And you'll be okay. This is a hard road for all of us. ~~~ Scottie

Hi Sandy. I am so sorry for your loss. Hugs! Betty

I sometimes wish this was a nightmare and I would wake up to find my life going on as it had when Greg was still living. I get strength from knowing he may be gone from my sight but he is right here with me. One time I was crying, as I do every day, and I felt his love for me. I know that he would not like for me to be so sad. He is in a better place and he wants me to be okay also. I am a very spiritual person and I get by knowing the the Lord and my husband are here with me helping me out every day. Without that I would not know how to survive this.

I'm very sorry for your loss. My husband was my best friend too, so I understand.

Scottie , how do I read your posts or articles? You said somewhere that you wrote about triggers . How do I access it