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msandoval91
msandoval91
On June 17th would be a month since my husband died. I been doing pretty good crying less, work is really keeping me busy. At times I look forward to having my baby girl she's due September 18th. At moments like this I look forward to dying, yes dying all I want to do is died. I look forward to seeing my husband and can't wait. I'm not scared of dying no more, just excited and nervous. I don't kill myself because I know my soul won't go to the same place I wish he'd had taken me with him. What's keeping me from going is this pregnancy and my 6 years old boy. My husband was only 22 died of an asmath attack due to a respiratory failure how stupid is that? He was full of life, he was my self esteem and confidence. I know his the person who's been given the strength I need. Tomorrow is father day looking forward to seeing him bring him some balloons. I miss you so much Adrian. I wish you were here you left us too soon.
kymberlycourt
kymberlycourt
I am so sorry for you loss. There are no words the express the degree of your loss. Your baby girl will know her father through you. Please keep strong my thoughts are with you and your family.

Kymberly
greyhounder
greyhounder
You are stronger than you ever imagined. You just don't know it, yet. That beautiful baby will bring you joy and your 6 year old loves his mom very much.
silverfoxwife
silverfoxwife
I am so sorry for your loss. Father's day will be very hard, just hang in there. Hugs.
darjar0
darjar0
I have felt like you...not scared to die cuz it means I can see Michael again. Some days the only thing that kept me here was knowing if I ended it all I wouldn't see him. And living my life to make him proud of me.
It's only been a very short time for you. But I feel your strength...give it time...you will make it.
Peace & hugs
msandoval91
msandoval91
Thank you everyone. Today was hard going to the cemetery. My boy gave me the strength I need it to keep it together.
NewRoadsForMe
NewRoadsForMe
My heart goes out to you, dear, since you are so young and getting ready to have your baby in a few months. It's just so hard to imagine life moving on without your husband. You are stronger than you think, and your beautiful son and daughter will make your life worthwhile. I'm so sorry that your husband had to leave so soon in life. But your kids will have a great mom to raise them and tell them about their father. Best wishes going out to you. Keep smiling through the tears. You will get through this. You will be better eventually.
msandoval91
msandoval91
Thank you everyone. Today is a month since my husband died is so hard I never thought today would be so painful. Not even been at work can distract me.
darjar0
darjar0
As time goes on you will get better with the "anniversaries" Today is 6 months for me and it's the first one where I wasn't totally down, useless & crying. I noticed & was told that even if you don't know what the date is for some reason as it comes near you start to feel sadder. I would feel horrible and check the date and sure enough it was close to the 17th. I don't know if this happens to everyone but it did to me. But it does get better...maybe not in 6 months or even a yr for some but you will begin to accept your life as it is. Once you do that things start to improve. Bless you. I wish you peace
mel40
mel40
I am sorry. These dates really stink. In the first few months, I would count the time, then I decided that wasn't healthy for me. One month, two months, three months... It just marks your life. It does get better. Easier to live with. Love your son. I have a teen daughter at home and I am glad that I do. It has helped me. Given me reason to press on.
I remember having the same thought that I wish he had taken me with him. I no longer feel that way. Sending prayers for you and your children.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Your post is so sad, so terrible and I am praying for you, for your unborn beautiful baby. How tragic he is gone so young and that you are here alone feeling this way.

It won't feel like this, this intense forever darling. I promise, it doesn't seem like it but it will get better in time. you have my heart and you are in my thoughts.
Love,
Cindy
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