It is like Hell. This new place is so alien to me,even the people are different. I do deep breathing alot. My husband was terminal for a long time and yet when he died i still am unable to understand. I go for walks and am trying to drink water..i am a coffee addict. The waves of pain come and I come on here and chat. Everyone here knows. I know everyone griefs differently But we all know the waves of anguish each one here. Glad you are here :) I am trying not to think..but i also try and think of positive stuff ..like Spring will be here soon. Or I have been trying to bake again..trying things to keep busy with my forgetful brain. Welcome to our loving group (( Hugs))

I know the feeling,trust me your not alone...

You are definitely not alone. I feel those waves sometimes just because, other times life just gets in the way and I just waste the day in pain wishing my husband was back.
My husband, Pete, died suddenly 19 months ago and you do find a way through it (you never 'get over it'). You never stop loving or missing but I think it changes to gratitude and honor. Because these scars and the pain are the cost for loving truly and deeply....the alternative is to not have such a reason for feeling the pain.

And if you've never felt your soul being torn apart, you've never loved anyone with all your heart. - Life Happens, Anyone who has lost a loved one to cancer, any cruel and painful disease or illness, or through accident or natural causes will know just how hard a thing it is to get through, both for the sufferer and those around them.

I know how you feel,

((Hugs)) and I know your pain so well.

Hang in there..
Coping @ times is difficult but you can do it...
Unanswered questions, obstacles that challenge us...
Tears will come, the feeling of a pit in our stomach
Little steps...
Our journey is now intertwined with grief
But, there is a tomorrow with hopes
A future with dreams
Give yourself time....

It has been 3 years for me, the highs & lows have leveled
New responsibilities arisen, asking for help
It's a different kind of life
Keep the faith
jdp

You are so right I am sorry for your heartache I feel those times of crying is your personal time to grieve not when you are trying to be strong for your family but being able to just cry for yourself without it I would probably go crazy hang in there and take care of yourself great words but hard to do sometimes that is the struggle we have

That's when the heart broke into a million pieces, and the future felt so bleak, alone and scary, and wondering what is there to go on?

But then the sun comes up again, and there are a million things to do on that day, and another day came and gone, despite the raging emptiness.

Right with you. The mornings when an overwhelming feeling of sadness hits full on, the sinking stomach, the seeping tears, the despair. But so good to share our thoughts and feelings with others. Take care xxx

My husband of 40 years was taken by lung cancer. He was the strong one, the one who ate right, exercised, and I thought he would live on and on. It didn't happen. I was devastated by the loss and had no idea how to get through it.
The answer was the people here on Daily Strength. They understood. It will be 10 years this June and this month was supposed to be our 50th wedding anniversary. Overall, I have "accepted " the loss if anyone can. I still visit those days, but knowing I can survive makes "acceptance " possible.