Prayers being said for you. It seems like having the knee surgery should be first so that you can recover, not have pain and be able to walk again. Once your health is better you can take care of the rest. My thoughts are with you Love and Hugs, Dolores

Sandy, I am so sorry for the things that is happening with you. Big hugs to you.
I hope and pray that your pain will ease up and something good will show up soon. Believe that God is walking this through with you and he will let his light shine on your dark alley.
Hugs.

Hi Sandy! It does get better, you just have to wait it out. Toughest 39 months of my life, and yet I'm still here kickin' :) I think my real turnaround happened at about early last November when everyone, including me, thought I was having a heart attack -- just a very expensive diagnosis of chest pains caused by stress. Ended up dating one of my local ER nurses that did the intake on me, and we've been becoming better and better friends coming up on 9 months now. A lasting stable friendship with an understanding nice person. I've come out of a lot, and continue to put the depression farther behind me. And finally my brain cells are connecting again, way better clarity of thought of recent. Am I over it yet? I think I'm getting close, but hell I would have said that 2 years ago. Odd thing about that grief, at least mine anyway, I never knew how truly bad off I was until I was able to look back on it. My decision making skills went on sabbatical, that's for sure. We just have to keep going, putting our shoes on one at a time, and stepping into each day as it comes. Little by little we hurt a little less, grieve a little less often, find enjoyment of life again, and if you are like me, our eyes open and we can see the rubble of our life trying to live and survive in the aftermath. I can't speak for anyone else, but I actually believe myself to be a better person today because of it all. Found out I wasn't right all the time. Found out it works way better for me to not react when something bothers me, but to sleep on it. Learned it never looks nearly as bad the next day. Learned I wasn't perfect. And I began my life a new, severed or lost practically all my previous life's people connections, started anew building a whole new world for myself. Well, actually I didn't do anything, I just kinda let my new life form around me. You know everyone's grief is different, and yet it has so many remarkable similarities between all of us. How much time it takes before we come out of it is impossible to predict because each and every one of us is unique. Bottom line, you will be alright and find your new world eventually. You just have to hang in there. Remember, this is not about being a race. This is about survival. Good to read your words again ~~~ Scottie

I am praying for you dear Sandy. I know how you feel. You are going through way too much. Keep praying. Go online and google online prayer requests. There are groups of people that will pray for you. I have been doing that for a few months. At 63 I needed a job. Not very likely that I would get hired. After much prayer and prayers with the groups, I have a job. There are also phone prayer lines. They will pray with you over the phone. It is reassuring and supportive. Hugs to you Don't give up.