Your grief is new and at this time it is inconceivable to you that you will find a way to go on with your life. I remember feeling the same way when my husband passed away four years ago. Today, I am happy and have found my way back to life , though forever changed, is full and complete. What helped me the most, was my desire to live the kind of life that I know my late husband always wanted for me. My sweet Charlie would want me to continue to find light in this world and to live a joyful life and not to be afraid to continue without him physically present. I have gone on to love again, and have found that the heart is capable of opening up to the future , while still finding peace and solace in the past. I promise you, that it will get better. Listen to your heart, and peace will come to you, for life indeed goes on, and goes on beautifully.

I know. My wife Juanita thought she had acid reflex, went to the doctor, a whirlwind of tests and then the --ologists. Four months from terminal pancreatic cancer, she was dead. And my life was changed forever. Coming up on 3 years in the aftermath now. I'm doing pretty good. It's been a long road, but many before me have traveled it. I know this is so hard for you. Just hang in there. Grief has to take its course. We are all here for you. Scottie

Thank you, Walker and Scottie for sharing and for the comforting words. It has been a real struggle and I know you both understand because you have been on the same road. I am so thankful I found this special online support group . I initially looked for a support group that I can go to but then I realize I am not ready to share in person because I do not have the energy to attend and I probably would just cry the entire time. It does help when you share with people who have the same experience. My grief has been consuming me emotionally and physically. Right now I am in denial...I can't believe and I am having a difficult time comprehending that my beloved husband is gone. I miss my Keith so much...my life will never be the same without him, my heart is forever broken. He was a gentle soul. He always put my needs first before his. I have a lot of beautiful memories with my husband, we had a good life together and I really miss that. We always said I Love you to each other a milion times every single day. And there was not a single day that he did not make me laugh. We did a lot of good things together about 6 months prior to his diagnosis, he always told me that he wished he had known me a lot sooner. His soul probably knew he was racing against time. The only consolation I have right now is that I know he is not in pain anymore...I love my Keith FOREVER.

Your Keith sounds like my John, who also passed of pancreatic cancer, 9 months after diagnosis. All I can tell you is be kind to yourself, if you are sad, be sad, if you feel like crying, cry, scream, get the emotion out. In an odd way, it does make you feel better. I won't tell you this road is easy, the grief process takes many twists, turns but you will find yourself one day smiling even if it's just watching a hummingbird, a child splashing in the mud, anything that is just plain silly and it's not a crime to smile or be happy even if its for just a minute, minutes lead to hours and so on. Don't be hard on yourself, your heart is broken, just know people love and care about you and yes you will love Keith forever and how wonderful you have his love.

How do you go on to live again and love again when you lose your soulmate. .its your one and only person. .my struggle is realizing I will forever be alone grieving him for eternity while I rot away on this earth

I'm so sorry. This is a good place to visit. Everyone here has been through a sad loss. Be kind to yourself and try to take the best care of yourself that you can. Grief takes a while to get through. it just takes some time.
If there is a bereavement group near you will meet others who understand. Love and Hugs, Dolores

Thank you for all your comforting words. I am dying of extreme sadness. I miss my husband my heart aches so bad...this is my first week back to work traveling, and I had a meltdown at the hotel...it is so lonely without him. I need a lot of prayers so I can get through this. And I do hope I can get through this....

So sorry that you have to be on this journey, but you are with people who understand. I would like to add that going to actual physical grief groups helped me tremendously. My weekly visits to the groups(2) helped me to focus on healing and working my way through the grief process rather than just living alone in my misery and waiting for some magic. When the numbness wore off and I started to think about the rest of my life, I needed help. I would come home from the meetings feeling as if I had been beaten. But each beating made me stronger and more resolved to work at recovering. There was reassurance from the counselers about the fact that I was not crazy in how I was feeling and a real sense of belonging there with others like me. The hospice program has some great counselers. Wishing you peace, Martin

I want to share this with all of you. My husband finally visited me in my dream last night. He kissed me and there is a background song, "Me and You" by Kenney Chesney. We both loved that song. When you have time, please find the music in you tube and listen to lyrics...I woke up crying!!! Oh my God I miss him so much!!!!!