I am so very sorry for your loss. I get the pain you struggle with because I have walked in your shoes. We get through this nightmare one day at a time and often moment by moment. I believe that my husband watches over me, but this came later. In the beginning I began my day writing to him, often through my tears. It made me feel close to him.
Welcome to the group no one wants to join. I hope you find comfort and understanding with us. Sharon

I am sorry for your loss. My husband passed away two months ago after being together for 34 years and I didn't feel the loss at first but now I am so lost and lonely it hurts. Hopefully we can help each other through this difficult time.

I have been fake for a long time too and these emotional journeys sometimes is soo hard. No one around you understands you ..i feel as though everyone hates me and then i come on here and it makes me feel so much better :) Hugs xox

Sorry for your loss. All I can tell you is time heals everything. God doesn't give you more than you can handle, even though you think you can't handle it but you will. Believe me I have cried (still do) shout, lay around all day Nothing seems to work but I am just getting use to staying by my self. Pray is a big thing for me. When I can't take anymore I shout God name to help and guide me. And it helps sending love and patience to you

yeah its tough but what really made me breakdown like that is his brother sending me photos that we took when we were on our vacation and it showed how happy we were,made me think I should have cherished those moments,I look at it and am thinking like all of that is gone,his brother even doesn't want to talk to me nowadays because they all think somehow its my fault he died,and I feel this pain and guilt in my chest and everyday you have to put a fake smile but deep down your the only one who knows what you are going through! let God see all of us through this times

I am so very sorry that you lost your love. Unfortunately we have all shared this awful experience After 16 months I still just want my husband back. Yesterday I didn't wear my wedding and engagement rings for the first time and it made me so sad I put them back on today. How you survive this is one day, sometimes one moment at a time. Nothing more right now. Come here as often as you need, it helps to know others understand and have survived Time truly does help. It is a rollercoaster of emotions, let yourself just experience what you are feeling and hang on because it will change. At the beginning you don't know that. The very deep pain will begin to subside in time. If you do pray, continue to do so. I wish you peace God Bless

Our life has changed, it is now intertwined with grief. It has been 3 years for me.
Each day comes, each day ends.
Do what you can, give yourself credit for what you accomplish.
Cry out to God, He hears.
Grief is overwhelming, pray, tell God how you feel.
It's tiny steps....
jdp