You will never forget the women that you loved and your daily remembrance is a testament to that love. Michael my late husband is always on my mind and at times the love I still feel for him takes my breath away. Shaun, whom I adore, is understands the spiritual connection with Mike, however, he understands even more deeply that he is not a mere replacement in my life, but a true gift to my life. I don't know you, but when I read your words I get a sense of your desire to walk in the light again. Life does goes on and it goes on proudly, gracefully, and in someway without rhyme or reason. Always take time to follow your heart for it won't lead you astray if you truly trust your gut instincts. Keep safe, and continue to thrive.