Hi Faith, Not just another day, is it? In a lot of ways, I look forward to when I stop watching the calendar -- at some level it might just be that we don't ever want to forget them. Never a right or a wrong way to grieve, you know that by now. Just listen to your heart, not anyone else. Do what feels right to you, and you will be just fine with a lot of time. God bless and comfort you ~~~ Scottie

Time has slowed down tremendously for me. My wife was my best friend, and we never seemed to have enough hours in the day. Now it seems like I have all the time in the world. It also seems like she's been gone forever, but it's only been months. I believe I will always love and miss her no matter what the future brings.

Hey Faith,
I'm with you. I am glad to have been lead to this site. It's amazing how much we all are so similar in the way we miss those who have gone on home. Sometimes there just aren't words to describe the level of loneliness. especially in the mornings when I first wake up. It still feels like waking to a nightmare and not waking up from one. I'm ready to wake from this one anytime. I still have to hold onto knowing she hasn't ceased to exist but simply moved to that other dimension. And someday I will see her again. Take care.
Peace, Tim

You must have lost your Bernie on December 29. That is the exact same day I lost my husband, although in the afternoon. While at times it feels so much longer, it also seems like just yesterday.

My thoughts are with you. Peace and love to you also.

Kate

HI Faith, for me it's Fridays. I understand what everyone is saying, as it has only been 2 1/2 months, and it feels like forever......and just yesterday. I miss him.......and I can't imagine how that will ever change, but gosh I hope it gets easier some day. My heart literally ACHES just thinking about him. Love and hugs to all of you going through this sad journey of ours.

Dear Faith, your grief is perfect, and there is no right or wrong, or good or bad. It's Mondays now that are bad for me, use to be fridays, just think it was the beginning of my husbands work week.. not sure why else it would be more sad now for me. Thank you so much for sharing. Much love and big hugs carla

Thank you everyone. The words of support and the advice is really helpful. The day wasn't horrible, as it might have been. I went to the gravesite yesterday, anticipating that it might be too difficult to go today. I had taken some tulips to place on his grave and some pesky varmint had eating the all but stems and bulbs. The same thing happened after he was buried. He had beautiful roses on top of his grave that had covered his casket during the service. Within a few days of his burial all the roses had been eaten- and only the stems remained. Actually, it didn't bother me at all because if Bernie's soul is lingering near the grave he would have been more entertained by the varmint than the flowers.

Yes, Katie, Bernie died at around 8am on December 29th. He had gotten out of bed at 7:13 that morning to go to the bathroom. I stayed in bed and actually fell back to sleep. When he came back to bed he was in distress. He hadn't been able to talk for a couple of months. So he couldn't tell me what was happening, but his struggle only lasted a couple of minutes at the most- and then, as I stood over him watching, he took his final breaths. He had just completed chemo and radiation on the 24th. The doctors were telling us that it looked like the cancer was gone from his throat and lymph nodes, but they wouldn't know for sure until he had healed from the radiation completely and they were able to scope him again. We were warned that he might be quite sick for a couple of weeks after therapy ended, but the prognosis was very good and we had no idea.....

I wished we shared a happier anniversary date Kate, instead of sharing the date that we were widowed. I hope we are both quick to regain our footing in this world and get back to the business of living. You are in my thoughts!

Oh Faith, I am so sorry for you. Big hugs.