Welcome PatriciaP, I'm sorry for your loss and the need to join us. You are in the right place, so much good advice, support and shoulders to cry on. I wish I had found this sooner...
We are all in the same shoes, at different stages, but we know what you are going through. I will say a prayer for you today.

Thank you. I have lost my father and it was hard then I lost my mother and it was even harder but I had him to lean on but now he is gone and this is the hardest. Today... All I can do is cry and feel hopeless :(
And I hate this feeling. I can use all the prayers I can get,thank you

So sorry for loss. Best place you could find. We have all been where you are right now. Some farther on in grieving and coming to terms with our loss .
Take care and all the best to you
Hugs Lois

why does this have to feel so hopeless?
It's like nothing will ever be right again?

Hi Patricia, I'm glad you found us. We've all been exactly where your are now, and yet we are all still here. We survive it. With time and only time, it does get better. God bless and comfort you in this your time of need ~~~ Scottie

it has been just over a year for me and I am now starting to feel I am in an ok place...I can say it does get better with time...I felt exactly how you did in the beginning of this journey...I struggled with everything I did and never felt like I was going to be ok...then all of a sudden I started to begin to see a small glimmer of light...I can't say that everyday is a great one, but they are starting to come together a bit better now...just take one day at a time and come here often I found that it helped me greatly to just sometimes read the comments of others and know that I wasn't alone when in the world I felt alone...Hugs to you!!!

Scottie, I just read your link about the heehaw song.
Thank you, it was very helpful in many ways.

Do you any of you ever feel like stomping your feet ( I know, sounds like a child) and saying I don't want to go thur this?! I don't want these feelings and emotions. I want to feel better

Hi Patricia and welcome here, so sad you have a need.

Yep, stamping my feet sounds good. I also don't know about the strength necessary to slog through this grief. Like trying to run through quicksand...

This board is really, really good. You will feel at home here. It helps me to talk to my friends and try to get out of the house.

I'm a widow one month on March 16.

Sending cyber hugs...

Patricia...when we have made a life with someone, they have become the other half of us...you turn around and they are no longer there (at least in the physical)...you have just had half of yourself amputated, and you are a different person than you ever were in your life...if most of the people in our daily world do not understand that, everybody here understands it...sorry for your loss, and welcome home.

I am so sorry for your loss my husband just passed on jan 27 and I'm still having a hard time too I feel I'm going crazy also.
I do the same thing I think I'm doing ok then wham I'm back on my knees again I just don't know if I can get past this. We grew up together this May would have been our thirtieth wedding anniversary
I'm trying to get into the Word of God that seems to be my only comfort

MysticDay ... My husband passed on feb 6 so this is so new.
I'm thankful that I have family that love me but they
Don't know what this feels like. I do try to get out but
Sometimes it takes all I got to get motivated.

Thank you eighty8 .... That's makes so much sence so many things happening lately and I want to tell him and I can't :( so yes, part of me is missing :(

KellyJeffery... I too reach for God for comfort. But this just seems so unfair. I don't want to hurt. I don't want to miss him. I don't want to be alone :( I don't want to be sad :(
But I have no choice but to go thur this so I'm trying to find my way so I went searching for others who would understand and found this site.
I'm still learning my way around here

Patricia, so very sorry for the loss of your precious husband. Everything you are feeling is grief. When my husband passed, I found this wonderful forum to share and release all what was happening and everyone was helpful. I also joined a grief support group. Do whatever it takes to get through the day. Much peace to you.