I am sorry for your loss. Mine died on March 3 2016,all of our children basically quit more or less associating with me as soon as their Father discovered his cancer was almost a stage 3. I was devastated and became angry and now from my understanding they all hold it against me.I doubt we will even do Christmas this year that's how bad our family have drifted apart.... I have one son and they don't bother too much with him so ..but his wife is very controlling and doesnt understand me..so i am having a hard time too. Glad to meet you and Hugs

I am so sorry for you loss and my husband passed away October 18 at the age of 56. We were together for 33 years. I miss him every single second of the day. I to didn't sleep for weeks after, but I do try and rest when I can, and try to eat even if it is a nibble, and drink lots of water. I hate the night time because that is when I think of gary and it hurts so much.
We are here for you and write on the website anytime as like all of us we are here and we listen. It helps. Hugs Dianna

You are not stupid! This site is sort of hard to navigate. I still fiddle around to try and get back to the posts and stuff. So I am so glad it's not just me. I am sorry for what you are going through. The not sleeping thing stinks. It has not been quite 3 months for me since I lost my husband. I take PM's at night and I also have found that leaving the TV on helps. If I am listening to the TV I am not thinking and if I am not thinking then I am remembering how I found him in our bed. So do what you need to do.... I am sorry for the relationship issues with your kids. I am very blessed to have very supportive grown kids. I also have a son who is 25 with Downs Syndrome and he is my constant companion. My daughters are sort of bossy and they do get irritated with me. I seem to have so much trouble making decisions. I never used to be like that. I hope this site helps you. I have been lucky enough to make a really nice friend and hope to make a few more. I am sending you a hug. Take care. Jeanne

(It's not you, they made some 'improvements' in the last year, a total overhaul, and it made it very hard to manage.) In my case, it will be the 2 year mark on New Year's Day, making that holiday even more unbearable! Another factor in my case, is my husband was in critical condition in the hospital for close to 6 months before he actually passed, so I had been bracing myself for the worst for months.
If you can stick with it, this site is great for support, for realising you're not alone. Reading other's experiences helps a LOT!

Seems like so many of us don't sleep well. My dog was my husband's side kick, staying up late with him. I always went to bed earlier. Now, I am up at 4 every morning, thanks to my dog (who is mourning also). Maybe tomorrow morning will start later.

Ok this is very new to me as my husband of almost 35 years hasn't been dead quite a month yet. I am lucky in that I have grown children who will help me with anything I ask. I thought I had this whipped as I had time to prepare for it while he was on hospice for almost a month but it is just now hitting me. I feel like I am smothering. He was my best friend and the love of my life and I can't imagine how I will make it without him. I will of course, because life goes on until God gets ready for you. I have got to find something to keep me busy and my mind occupied. Please tell me that this will get easier.

I was trying to make my own post but couldn't figure out how. It seems instead I replied to someone else's post. I was not trying to ignore your feelings or situation as it is something I am facing as well. Please know that you are in my prayers and I hope your days will get brighter soon.

Grief changes but the loss is permanent. You need to move through it at your own speed. Some things that helpEd me was following my heart. Days I needed to stay home and others just going where I could distract my thoughts. I wrote my husband letters pouring out my pain.
I originally felt year 2 was worse, but looking back it wasn't worse, just different. Each year we find a place for our grief and continue honoring the pain. It becomes anecessary ache and you keep taking those baby steps. Love you all and welcome to the group. I hope you find comfort and understanding with us. Sharon

I am new here too. Lost my wife of 51 years very suddenly 3 1/2 months ago. First 3 or so months I was in shock,numb and sleepwalking. Thought I was doing fine. Then the shock wore off and I began to grieve. Joined a bereavement support group . I recommend it highly. Everyone knows exactly how you feel. Amazing compassion and caring. There is a collective wisdom that offers hope. Try it.
Hugs.

Why is it so hard to sleep? I am like that too. It has been 7 weeks for me and still not any easier. My sons just don't seem to understand either. I have no one to talk to and sit at home every night crying my eyes out and sometimes shouting at God...asking Him Why???? Sorry that I don't have any answers, just more questions. ((Hugs))

Sleep is the only release from my grief i get... almost five months now since she passed... Every waking moment is hell.. She has come to me in dreams.. my only solace now... praying for a sweet dream of her...

Ashton... I'm sorry for your loss, My Dennis, passed suddenly, 18 months ago..I think the hardest part is just missing them and Us..I gave Kurt..a list of books, that helped me you may want to look under his comment...to find them... Take care of you..Peace..Gail..;-)...