My heart breaks for you. Doesn't seem to make a difference how long we were with our true love, their death devastates everyone of us. The circumstances of death can and do compound the grief, from what I've seen here over these past 3 years. Some are diagnosed with Post Traumatic Death Syndrome (PTSD), and you might want to look into that. Honestly, I can't imagine going through your tragedy. You have been blessed with a son, and as he grows, he will come to know his father through you. Keep you focus on raising that little one, he is your blessing. Know that healing from your loss takes time and lots of it. You have suffered what I term a spiritual amputation, the most painful of all injuries. Eventually our broken hearts do heal, but the scars remain with us the rest of our lives. You take care of yourself and your baby kiddo. There are many wonderful loving people here to walk with you. Glad you found your way here. ~~~ Scott

Hello Tae56. My heart goes out for you, but scottito's advice is spot on. Hugs! Betty

Thank you both so much ❤️

I'm so sorry for your loss. You two were so young.

I had some old posts. Hopefully they will help you. You are starting to reach out, which I think is an excellent choice. You may also consider grief counseling. Not that he/she will magically wave your problems away, but it will help you to talk it out, and provide some feedback for you based on their experience. There are many emotions that you'll need to experience and to express them. Writing them down (Journaling) is a good exercise - even if it is just six words at a time.

Please know that we understand none of what you are going through now is easy. I compare it to the pain after removing a wisdom tooth. It is like a nerve pain that just wouldn't stop. We can't fix it for you but we are thinking of you, and hope in time you will be able to master living a life without him.

https://www.dailystrength.org/group/widows-widowers/discussion/a-letter-to-myself-as-a-new-widow

https://www.dailystrength.org/group/widows-widowers/discussion/on-pain-tolerance-and-why-there-are-no-bullet-pt

https://www.dailystrength.org/group/widows-widowers/discussion/grief-in-six-words

Thank you so much

I cannot imagine what you are going through. I feel guilty that I am complaining about losing my husband after 53 years but grief is grief no matter how it happens. I pray that you embrace your son and continue to remember his father always. God Bless Marilyn

Thank you and praying for all of you. I wish I could have came across this amazing group a long time ago. I know it would have helped me on the really bad days

Tae56, I'm so sorry for your loss. You're so young to have to experience grief. I know that little one can make you smile. Please know you will feel better in time. We are here for you when you need to vent. Wishing you strength and peace. Love and Hugs, Dolores

Thank you so much it’s so nice knowing that I have people how can relate

Very sorry for you've gone threw,when I found this site about 3 1/2 months
ago I didn't know how to deal my wifes death, not really sure now, but
reading other peoples stories and posts and writing about my own feelings
and my story has helped me alot.Not sure if the pain will ever go away
I find some comfort when I visit here. take care Glenn

Thank you Glenn and yes I agree I feel a lot better knowing that I have people with similar situations that I can talk to.