Oh Michele! I hurt for you. I'm so glad you get to spend time with that precious baby boy. Nothing is sweeter than cuddling our grand babies but I also know the pain of not being able to share that with our sweethearts. I hope you have a peace filled Easter. {{{ HUGS }}}
~ Bailey ~

Michele, I don't mean to seem like I'm making this about me, but I see a commonality between your situation and mine.
About 4:00 PM on June 12, 2015, we were faced with removing Marylou's life support...after 25 days in the hospital, she had been in a coma for the prior 4 days from a ruptured brain aneurism, and there was no chance she would ever regain consciousness...the last thing I did before I gave the nurses the nod, I held her hand a final time, and whispered a promise into her ear...that as long as I am around, our 9 grandchildren would know their grandma through me, especially the 3-year-old, who had not reached the age of recall while she was alive...and the rest goes without saying.
They are not with us in the physical any more...but in the 9-1/2 months since, I have learned that they are otherwise very much with us...we are Spirit, before this life, during this life, and after...the part of us that are Spirit in this life can feel the Spirit of our beloved...and that is the same Spirit Realm where Chet just arrived from...please have faith that Grandpa is right there with his new Grandson...and he is with you.
Consider reading anything by Patrick Mathews.
God Bless You and your New Grandson.

Michele,
I have felt exactly the same way about my grandson who came into the world on November 7th 2015. He is our first grandchild. I stabs my heart that Bob will never know the joy of a grandchild and it feels so lonely to experience this without him. sigh...
Cheri~

Michele-Big Big hug. It is hard isn't it? We have all these blessings in our life and the person who built these blessings with us is only left in our memories. Spring is a renewal, and little Chet is certainly that! Patti

Michele I feel the same way. My Tim was such a good Papa and he loved the role. We had a 4 Grandkids when he passed and another Grandaughter born 1 year and 1 day after he passed. I tear up when I think about him and her never meeting. Her Daddy, our youngest Son makes sure she is going to know his story and how amazing he was.
I hope you can find your joy again.
Hugs, Sandi

Michele, I can relate to how you feel so very much. I do not have grandchildren yet, but have had many bittersweet moments that should have been pure joy, but there was an underlying sadness because of my precious husband not being there. I cried through our daughter's college graduation....he had assured us he would live to see her graduate. I'm coming up on 2 years and I still wonder when the tears will stop, when I won't feel lonely, and when life will have joy again. And yes, like you, most of the wonderful blessings in my life are because of him.
Sending you big hugs. Enjoy the moments of joy that you experience. They are what help us continue to put one foot in front of the other as we journey forward in life as best we can.
Aloha dear friend,
Lori

Hi Michele,
And so life goes full circle. Nothing better than welcoming a new person into this world. So no one gets confused, my wife of 30 years, Juanita, was 10 years older than me. Juani had 2 teenagers when we got married - a 15 year old daughter and a 13 year old son. The daughter did not marry until about 3 years ago, and the son did not think he could have children because of his 10 year drug run. So we had given up all hope of ever having grandkids. Then all of the sudden, boom! Juanita was about 58 or 59 when her son got serious with a woman (he'd been married twice before, both short term). Well this new one was a package deal -- she already had Dominic who was 3 or 4 when we first met him -- grandson #1. Brooklyn was already on the way when they got married. She is now 6. And then came little Carlos, he is 4 now. Oh my, I didn't think it was possible for someone to love kids anymore than Juani loved her 3 grandkids. They moved away from WA to Iowa for him to get his masters, so we saw them mainly in the summers for the next 3 years. But grandma was on the phone with them every night, Carlos was more interested in crying than going to sleep, so Grandma would sing on the phone to him -- just making up songs -- and believe me when I say that Juani was no singer. But most nights, she'd sing to that little one for at least an hour until he'd fall asleep. Well, he got his master's and then got a job teaching college poetry classes at a University about an hours drive from here. That was about 4 months before Juani started losing weight and the nightmare began. With the summer before his job started, Juani got to spend about 7 months with her grandkids when in perfect health. By the time the diagnosis came, Juani was unable to travel anymore, but like troopers, her son and our daughter in law came over here with the grandkids every Saturday for about 4 months until she died.

I share all this with you Michele, because it was a week or so before Juani died. In tears she told me that the only reason she wanted to stay here was to see her grandkids grow up. Honestly, I did not think it possible for one person to love others as much as Juanita loved her grandkids. My believe is that she got her heart's desire, and is seeing her grandkids grow up -- except now she has a way better view from heaven and through my eyes too. Hang onto that Michele, you love those grandkids like nobodies business, spoil them rotten, let Grandpa see them through your eyes Michele, and let those kids know their Grandpa by all the stories you tell them about him. Sad day for me. God bless and comfort you and all of us ~~~ Scottie

Michellle, like yourself, holidays are sometimes very stressful. This is my second easter with out the love of my life, they don't seem to get any better. Only my understanding gets better, with what I am to do and how I am to do it. Love, and understanding. Now I can actually understand more things in my life, and how and why they are happening, and trying to figure out what my purpose in life is. I know your husband is so happy you have a new little grandson, and that he gets to watch him from everyday....with love and hugs carla

Hey Michele,
He needs you to teach him about grandpa. Who better to this than the one who was the closest to him. I think grandpa is watching from above and just as happy about his birth as you. And in the long run all our families will be together again for eternity.
Peace, Tim

I understand the mixed emotions with having a new grandchild after losing your spouse. I lost my husband last July to colon cancer. We now have 9 grandchildren. A grandson born a month before he died and a granddaughter born a month after he died. Babies are such a blessing, but it is heartbreaking that they will never know their Papa Kevin. He looked so forward to their births. Our other grandchildren are young too and will only remember him a little. My heart hurts everyday.
I believe that he is always with me and our family, watching over us. Our guardian angel. To not believe this would make life unbearable for me.
I hope your new little one brings you joy and helps you find some peace.

I'm new to this group and was glad I found someplace that understands. Cindy