Oh yes, been 21 months I have been doing great! Well, ok, pretty good.
two days ago I cried on and off all morning. Not sure why. My friend dragged me out of the house and made me shop all day with her.
It just happens. I wake up, and like many here have said, I'm tired of it.
Tired of doing it alone, tired of making myself do things I don't want to do. Miss him so. I just think, here we go, another day alone.
It's hard. Sometimes it's nothing I can figure, just happens.
Maureen

Yes definitely. I have often read where others have these ups and downs of moods. I experience it too. Its not much fun that's for sure. Just the other day I swear I cried all day long and really don't know why. I even slept in on Saturday until 12:30 in the afternoon. I couldn't believe it was that late but I just didn't have any reason to get out of bed. My husband passed away almost 9 months ago. So yes, you are not alone. I just wonder if these times of highs and lows, will ever go away. We can only hope.

Know the feeling well. I have been riding a wave these last few days and I'm going to do all I can and ride the heck out of it because I know that I'm going to hit the beach at any time and crash. I am alone. I hate not being motivated. I hate there are days that life passes me by and I'm not part of it. But, I refuse to give in to circumstances that I didn't ask for. I want to feel joy again. So I will ride the high waves as they come. I miss my husband so very much. He was my life. Now I have to make a life without him. That causes me unbearable pain at times. But, I have to build a life for me...for my granddaughters. May you find peace. Hugs, Colleen

Yes, sure do! There are days I just want life to be on "hold" for the day!!! And once in a while I'll do just that...take a "me" day and do mostly nothing of any importance. That seems to be enough to keep me on an even keel; but as Florence said previously, if you have many of those days, you might want to talk with your doctor about it. Blessings always. Sharon k.

I spent a lot of my time early on with no motivation, a lot of the time just sitting. I was not like that before but I feel like the sitting, thinking and going thru all the emotions is a necessary part of grief. As time passes, I am getting better with this. I don't feel unmotivated as often these days. On those days when I do, I can make myself complete one task. Sometimes one thing is all that gets done and I'm OK with that. I 'm finding that more often than not, finishing one task gets the ball rolling and often surprise myself with what I accomplish. Don't be too hard on yourself.
John