HUGS!!!

Hello Munmun, I understand your pain and I understand your grief. Take things minute by minute, hour by hour and day by day. Reach out here. We will listen and we will support you. Here is a link from a TED talk that has helped me https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=juET61B1P98. Here is also a poem by e.e. cummings that has helped me:

[i carry your heart with me(i carry it in]
BY E. E. CUMMINGS
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

And Munmun
Hope, Peace, Healing and Prayer for you for today... Mark

Thanks guys ! Just a single word of positivity means so much at this time . I have been crying my heart out the whole day , I scream and beg for help dunno to whom . My husband could never see one tear in my eye and now I m going through this . What a fate ! Can someone point out any spiritual relation to this which can help me ?

I have joined a support group. The program is Griefshare (Griefshare.org) They have programs across the nation. In the Raleigh NC area, there are dozens of these groups. It has helped me.
Blessing, Peace, Healing and Hope... Mark

Yes, I agree with Mark - find a support group in your area. I joined one for widows and widowers several months after my husband passed, and I attended weekly meetings for about a year. It truly helped to be among others who understood the pain and the depths of the loss. It has been several years for me, but I have also lost a significant number of family members since my husband passed so I found a grief counselor who has also provided a great deal of help. It helps to just talk. Know that you are among others who understand and want to support you through your journey. Keeping you and others on this site in my prayers, Roxanne

My husband passed away in Nov. 2015 of a heart attack while laying in bed with me. We were making love.&nbsp; He died on top of me. <br>
I went through the shock and other symptoms of grief and did go to grief counseling which did help to a degree, but not completely.
I created an online blog.&nbsp; Please look at my blog and how I am handling this thing called grief. The journal and my youtube channel online blog has helped me start to express some of my thoughts and feelings that I can&apos;t talk about with anyone else. The blog whether it is video or Tumblr is filled with thoughts and quotes that are very comforting. Some are sad,sometimes I cry while blogging but very fitting for me at this time. I pick up my phone and my thoughts and memories are pour into it whenever I need to. I keep it with me at all times, if possible. I would recommend this to anyone that has experienced a loss and needs an outlet.&nbsp; Please feel free to look at my videos, read my blog or ask questions.&nbsp; I will try and respond asap.<br>
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Come see my blog,<br>
https://youtu.be/dwSH4qQnsiA<br>
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http://widowstartingover.tumblr.com/post/151591496858/missing-him<br>
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http://widowstartingover.tumblr.com/post/150084501433/visiting-my-husband-grave<br>
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https://youtu.be/-nreqEWNXDM<br>
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https://youtu.be/Za3_oc_hBAE