Widows & Widowers Support Group
This community is dedicated to those who have lost a husband, wife, or partner. Anything is open for discussion here, with the hope that we can focus on grief, bereavement, life after loss, and continuing on after a great loss.
I am wondering about a different phase I have entered. It's been 4 1/2 months. It is hard to put into words but would like to know if this has happened to others. I don't want my kids to know so I don't talk to them about this. I work, babysit, take care of the house and yard, so on the outside I seem to be handling things. I don't have the daily crying but as we all know the grief never leaves. Now I have this big FEAR! . Fear of being in public unless it is necessary, fear if any of my kids and grandkids go anywhere, fear of going to church by myself, fear of going anywhere that does not include family. I was able to do all of this before. So what is happening to me? So far I have been able to hide it and make myself do what needs to be done but it is getting worse. Does this make sense to anyone?
Life forced me to move forward to work, to engage into social interaction, while at times it feels pointless, but I know i must go on.
Most importantly, I want to restore that self worth and confidence to live my life to the fullest.
Fear is normal, overcoming it, and working through the paralyzing doubts, that takes work. .
When you are ready, when you get stronger, start making small steps toward it, not running away from it.
When you accomplishing something, no matter how small, it will encourage you.
Also, it is important to be with people who believe in you , know you abilities, and they can support you going through this change.
Warm hug