I am so sorry for your loss. It is a roller coaster ride of emotions. One day at a time, one foot ahead of the other. Be gentle with yourself. ((Gentle Hugs)(

I, too, am sorry that you have lost your husband. The only ones who will completely understand grief are those that have experienced the traumatic loss that you have suffered. I am glad that you have found this site. Many years ago, I joined; and, although I posted very little, it was comforting to read others' postings where I identified with their feelings and emotions. Although you can't imagine it right now, you will get through this. It's tough. As time goes on, though, that gut-wrenching pain will lessen; and you will find some joy in life. It takes time, lots and lots of time. Hugs being sent your way.
Roxanne

I understand your sorrow because 6 years ago I lost the love of my life to kidney cancer. The people on this site helped a lot. I also went to 3 grief groups and then I started a grief group through my church. I now have 13 ladies in my group and we have become like sisters sharing the losses of our husbands. I will keep you in my prayers.

I am sorry for what you are experiencing, but it is normal. Your whole life, every aspect of it, has been changed abruptly, and no one can move on that quickly.
You need more time. Lots of it. Allow yourself to grieve and cry.

I still cry. I lost my husband of 43 yrs, about 9 yrs. ago and my second husband I lost 2 yrs ago. I did not go through the entire process of grieving before I
remarried. I am not sorry I did remarry, but it is not a substitute for the grief process. It is just recently that I realized that I now have to change to adjust
myself to the radical and frequent changes in my life.

Be gentle and kind with yourself. Take care of you. Do what you need. If anyone is pushing you to move on this soon, then forgive them and know they simply do not understand. You will find your peace in time.

I still cry everyday and there are those who don't completely feel comfortable with my progress.

It is your process. If you need help (we all do) reach out to someone who
you can trust. Or maybe a support group. Best to you. It will be ok at
some point. I am not there yet, but can see how it could happen for me,
eventually.

SO sorry for your loss, my husband passed away suddenly 6 weeks ago. He was 65. it hurts and will continue to hurt, We will get thru this as tough as it is. I know my husband would tell me take care of yourself, and know that I will always love you. that our love will live in our hearts forever that will never die. One day at a time, take a walk, don't forget to eat and drink, see and talk to a few friends or family that you know will be there for you. Prayers and love to you thru this journey we are on.

Sorry for your loss and people on this site know your pain and loss well. We have been there. It has been 10 years for me after losing my beloved husband to pancreatic cancer. From time of diagnosis to 10 months later my whole world was just gone, caput, over but in time I have adjusted, developed coping skills and have just put one foot in front of the other. One thing I have given totally up on is trying to explain my grief, the loss and crying that even to this day I do on occasion. People will say your still grieving and I will always grieve for my husband. They don't get it and never will. It does get easier, better but be kind to yourself, treasure your loved one, the memories. Wish there was a magic wand to make it all go away but you can do it, just takes a bit of time. Take care of yourself and u will be in my prayers.

I lost my wife of 25 years to cancer about 3 years ago and am still lost without her. I needn't dwell on the depths of the grief and pain as I'm sure you know them all, but I do have some thoughts for you to consider. If you are a spiritual person, I hope you can take comfort in the knowledge that he will always be with you, especially after so many years together. There may even be times, if you allow yourself that mindset, when you actually feel his presence. That will not replace his absence, but it helps soften the burden.

Don't put any pressure or any timetable on yourself. You commented that "No one understands why I haven't moved forward." Actually, everyone on this site understands why you haven't moved forward.