I'm so sorry for your pain. No one understands it unless they live it. That's why it's a fact that losing ones spouse is the most stressful event to happen in a persons life.
It feels like a part of you has died as no one was as close to you as they were. What you feel is normal...both in feeling so lost and also in trying to hide those feelings from your children. I'm sorry that I have no magic words of wisdom for you that could make it all better. The only way I've learned is to live each day one at a time. When you lay your head on your pillow at night, be thankful that you made it through another day. Let all those tears out but also remember to be thankful that you had the opportunity to know such a beautiful love like you did. Many people don't. I know that really doesn't help right now but someday you will look back on these very rough days and wonder how you ever made it through....and then you'll be proud of yourself for doing just that.
I wish you strength and courage my dear....you will always be loved....just in a different way. He's never far from your side.
Every day is a new start...just try your best.
Big hugs to you
Darcie

You are feeling the normal signs of loss and tears are important. Your girls are suffering too from their loss. Grief isn't a one size fits all. Do you think you could talk to them about how they feel? Some try to hide their feelings and others can't, but everyone struggles. How about saying, I know that I upset you when I cry, but I miss daddy so much.
I wish there was answers, but in this case the answer is day by day. Sharon