Still somedays it feels like it just happened yesterday! We met when I was 13 and were together til God chose to take him home. So many memories made in so many years. Even though the pain of losing him was and is so hard to get through I would do it again in a heartbeat! I have had many bad moments in these last few years mostly with my depression. Due to an unsigned line in our paperwork I lost our home even though I never missed a payment while that was hard it was also a changing point for me. I had to take a deep breath and find a place to live on my own downsize all of my belongings and find a job. I could have fought and kept my house but I chose not to to let go and move forward it had been 2 years and it was just time. Oddly enough I don't miss the house or the things I do miss my old life but I have managed to deal with all the changes even while dealing with depression. Though on many days I struggle to make myself get out of bed no matter how sad I would be I got up and showered and faced the day. I always said once I put my shoes on everything would be okay so each day I put my shoes on and walk through another day! And they all are not bad I enjoy most of my days now and those that I do not well they just make the good days feel better. I have taken complete care of myself now for 8 years I think he would be proud of me and I am proud of me because I have never given up on life! Even though you think you cant I am here to tel you you can if I can you can just one day at a time put your shoes on and get trhough the day and each day will be a tiny bit better than the last!