My heart aches for you in your sorrow. I'm sure you are very overwhelmed at times -- anyone would be. Losing your mom and husband so close together was very hard, plus caring for your son and the younger boys. This is a good place to find encouragement. People will support you with kindness and understanding. There are other support groups at Daily Strength about caring for grandchildren and also for handicapped persons. You probably would find a lot of support if you check out these places. I lost my husband almost 6 years ago to leukemia, after a 50 yr. marriage. I try to encourage new widows here and so does everyone else.
Hugs - Doye

Thank you doye for your reply and encouragement, also the tip about the other sites. Part of my problem is that I, too, have leukemia. I have Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia but am still in "Watch and Wait." No major symptoms yet. I am so sorry for your sorrow. After that many years of marriage it leaves a huge hole. Bless you.

Your grief will change over time as you heal and grow into an individual once again. I was married to my husband for 40 years and my identity was as part of the team. Losing him was like losing half of myself. We lose our partner, and our plans for the future. It's the hardest time of my life to rebuild myself especially when I was happy with who I was. This loss was not okay. It's unfair and together we can get through the days of loss. Hugs, Sharon

Thank you SHM you give me hope. Thank God I found this site. I already do not feel so alone.

Hello Marsha,

You will see a little bit of light as the each day goes by, it is a very difficult journey we are on and the folks here are so supportive and caring and will help in any way to get you through the most difficult of times and even the ones that seem not so bad. We are all here fore the same reason, that is we have lost our best friends and loves and we all will continue to help each other, I have had great support and met wonderful friends here and I am so glad that I found this site when I did. You will in time feel better and things will get a bit easier for you, each of us are at different stages of this journey and some move faster or slower than others, we all are different on the feels and stages of grief but rest assured we can all help each other. I send Peace and Love to you and hope you heal a little as each day passes.
Laurie

Yes, we do recover, but everyone travels a different grief journey. We all do not grieve the same way and for the same time duration. Eventually you will be more at peace and able to carry on a life for yourself. It is not going to be the same, and you will be a different person, but it will happen.

I hate what has happened with us, but know there was and is nothing I can do to change it. My husband is not in pain anymore, and most likely favors where he is. I now worry about me, because it is all about me now. I am in a comfortable place (for myself), knowing that we will be joined again one day.

Marsha,

I am so sorry you continue to receive such struggles. Please know that your sharing your story makes me realize how very blessed I have been and am. Even in the midst of my own grief, I realize there are so many others going through so much more. (That realization on my part and the fact that I can empathize is a healthy sign, I'm told.) So, thank you for telling your experiences.

I can offer you some good news while you slog through this grief journey: This site offers you shoulders to cry on, ears to listen and understanding hearts who cry with you. Everyone here will make it out of this vale of tears because we have each other.

So when you feel you can no longer hold on, come here. You will find some peace through others who are traveling this same road.

Hugs,

Terry

I read your post and meant to reply and somehow I missed doing that. I want you to know that your post just touched me so deeply.
You're dealing with so much and I am so sorry for your pain and loss.
I have children as well, but your load is much heavier. '
My darling died at 48 w brain cancer and I was madly in love with him and we have six children, five still at home here with me. I understand what you are feeling and going through.
God Bless your heart.

Losing your Mom and your spouse that way is unimaginable to me.
There are fantastic people here and they are so loving and kind please let us know how you are doing soon.
HUGS,
Cindy