Catina, I'm so sorry. You have gone through a lot of devastation in your young life. Of course you feel empty and lost, and four months is such a short time in this grief process. The hardest part is having to pretend you're okay. This is a place where you don't have to do that. Here you can come and express every emotion you feel, and know that everyone here understands.

Our friends want to be helpful to us, but unless they've lost a spouse, they just can't give us what we need, and after a short while they go on with their lives and expect us to do the same.

I don't know where I'd be If I hadn't found this site. Come here often to vent, just talk, ask questions, whatever you need. We'll be here for you.

Hugs,
Linda

I am so sorry for the losses you have suffered. We look for answers to why this has happened to us and I find that those questions have no answer.
My wife Amy was the sweetest, kindest, most generous soul I knew on this earth. She made me the man I am today and taught me much in life and in death.
All I can do is try and live the life I think she would want for me and to make her proud of my decisions in this new journey. I often wonder how I will make it without her.
I can't imagine dealing with this pain twice and my thoughts and prayers are with you.
You are not a burden here and know we do understand what you are going through.
Take care of yourself. ~Pete

We are all here for you and understand. And when we say we are so sorry for your loss, we are because we know you're in the same boat as we are -- so let this be your safe haven. It is mine. ~ Scott

I'm glad I found this group, I'm sorry we are all here for the same reason. The nights seem to be the hardest. I have not been able to sleep in our too yet, its to hard.

My friends have went on with their lives and without my kids I don't know where I would be. My husbands friends were supportive in the beginning, but that changed fast one told me to get rid of all his things and not sit and stare at them than in the next breath asked if he could buy his things. A couple other friends asked me out. Really! Thats not a friend.
Most days I don't leave the house which I know is not good for me, I just don't know what to do with me. Jason, was my best friend I'm angry he was taken from me, I sometimes feel like its my fault like I cause them to die. How many people my age have lost two spouses? I get upset that I don't dream about him, I wish he would just tell me he's ok and that he's with his little girl. I feel he's mad at me because I didn't save him.
I miss him so much my heart hurts.