It's quite okay Ruth! Only natural! This will be me sooner or later too. Just go with the flow and one day at a time. This too shall pass honey. And then come back...and then pass again. In between you will learn to cope and eventually survive. But for now, let your feelings out.
Have a nice lunch and enjoy your family.
Love to you
Darcie

I'm sorry for your pain and the loss you struggle with. I found leaving work to return to an empty house very hard. It's yet another reminder of how much we lost. Sending you a hug and thoughts of a better day. Sharon

Ruth, do not apologize! I have learned that it's much better to let your real feelings out. We all understand, believe me. You're very new to this. Sometimes when couples visited it made me feel worse, more alone, even jealous that they still had each other. And crying is a natural release for you. I always feel better after a good cry. I hope lunch with your family helps. If it doesn't, that's okay too. You'll get through this. I'm so sorry.

Hugs,
Linda

Sometimes in the beginning, and even now, getting out really helps and sometimes it doesn't. I'm just saying if it doesn't help this time, it will at some time. Just let yourself be where you need to be.

Linda

I'm sorry for your pain and sorrow. This is a very lonely journey, and it takes a lot of time to get used to our new reality. I am at 17 months and cannot believe how many tears I've shed. The weekends are the hardest. Work is a good distraction, but then coming home to an empty house can be very sad and lonely. It does get easier as time goes on, but I still cry at some point every day. I do it when I'm alone, and I know that only others that have experienced this loss understand that it is normal that I still cry. You are not a Debbie downer.....you are a grieving widow. Hang in there and try to find things to do that feed your spirit.
*Lori*

Ruth, you do not have to apologize. We all understand! I have cryed many many buckets of tears. And I never feel better afterward. How can the human body produce so many tears? I know one side affect of all the crying is how dehydrated I get. It's rediculous. Let the tears flow hon, you are grieving and I think it would be odd if you didn't cry. Hugs and Love, we are here for you! Michele

Crying is your body's coping mechanism at this time of your life...It's what keeps things going and in the long run it will make you healthier and stronger... One day you will notice that you may have cried a couple minute less than the day before but eventually you will find that you are moving forward and crying less...Your body and mind have gone through a great shocking tragedy, it needs time and needs you to be good to yourself...XOXO

I am glad you came here to get out your feelings. Here is where many can relate unfortunately.

Hugs to a better moment

Thank you all so much. I'm so glad I found you. One good thing about this experience is that it really gives you a lot more empathy for others who have lost their loved ones.

you are not Debbie Downer at all. just being Real.

Hugs for you.

It's okay to be Debbie Downer. This isn't a cheerful place. This is the Widows and Widowers Support Group on DS. We are all going through the same things. This is where we come to let it out. You are in the appropriate place to vent those emotions.

I cried for my wife today on this board while reading through the list of how other's spouses had died. I always think that I am done crying and then I'm not. I suppose that one never is.

It's okay to cry.. Sometimes it's the best thing that we can do. I may cry more today, it's a cold autumn day and i can feel the wetness behind my eyes as I brew a cup of green tea already. Crying is part of the process.

I'm not afraid to admit that a big bad ass biker cries daily and sometimes several times a day. It is not something I can or want to control. When the tears stop or at least subside it doesn't mean that we have gotten over or forgotten our loved ones we have just accepted our fate and can hopefully move on with our lives while still always remembering our loves with fond and loving memories. For now it is something we must do in these stages of grief that everyone has to go through. Peace to you. ~Pete

Hey Debbie Downer meet Weepy Wendy.......Can we be friends?

The light turned red..........I weep.
The bread was burnt........I weep.
The clock ticked 3:00am..I weep.
My daughter called..........I weep.
I opened his closet...........I weep.
The mail was late.............I weep.

And on and on......This is our time to cry and weep. We'll be okay one day. One day!

Roz

Oh Roz I totally get it. Just so much weeping all the time.