I certainly will. The anxiety brings such false fears, like you don't want to leave the house, then when you do you're afraid you're not going to want to come back. What a vicious cycle, and draining.

Anxiety is a horrible feeling, i would go to the store, run and what i needed for the house and run back home... But with the help of paxil, little by little i am getting better... It's just so many emotions we have at this time, it takes over our mind and soul... I hurt a lot everyday and i cry everyday for my husband i miss him terribly, but i knew i had to do something, because if i didn't i would have been in the hospital.. At this point i believe everyone needs to do what makes them feel better , to live a happier life.. I am not there yet as it's been to recent for me, but i am still here on earth and if i don't take care of myself no one else will.. Take care..... Stay in touch..

You are correct. Sometimes it seems the more we fight to go on, the worse we are going to get. I can't afford to go on a downhill spiral, for I would lose my job and my home. Neither of which I can bear to do. If something were to happen to either, it would do me in.

Yes, the anxiety when you go to the store. How well do I know that one. You just want to jump out of your skin and run like heck. Where? You have no idea.

That's how i feel, i cannot afford to loose what i have,although at times i feel, that i don't want to be here..Then i start thinking i am still here there has to be a purpose , it's so hard, you wonder what lies ahead of you, what's your future?? So much saddness.. The only hope i have at this moment is that many women have gone thru what were going thru and they have made it thru.. I have my ups and downs, and i know only time will heal me.. For now i am trying to do it one day at a time.. Take care...

Hi Debbie, Schiff has a vitamin for sleep. It's called Melatonin plus, why don't you give this a try? I think vitamins are far better than meds if you are against medicine for sleep. Tell me what you think!

Well, after a productive appointment with the doctor, he changed the Lexapro to Cymbalta and wants to see me in three weeks. I am to take the Lorazepam, 1 mg tab, for 7 nights, then cut down to .5 mg. What is most important right now is a good night's sleep without waking up, having the mind work and the anxiety set in.

I told him everything, which is right in line with grieving. What could one expect after loving a person for 38 years, and losing them, now being totally on their own? He also said there are no time lines, everyone's journey is a personal one, and there are no rules. He also felt I was doing the best for myself, right in line with the healing process, and had no doubt that in time I would be the independent and confident woman I once was. Geez, easier said that done, doctor.

But, being he has been in practice for many, many years, I am sure he has seen and heard it all.

He is pleased I am in counseling, and going to try the bereavement group on Monday. Also said to limit my time being alone, exercise and cut out raw sugar. And to get out of the house as much as possible.

I'm just adding all this in the hope that it helps one of you.

We'll see how the new meds work, but ultimately in time it is up to me to pull myself out of the hole.

Hi, sounds like the doctor knows you are having a hard time, but knows you are heading in the right direction.. I also was told pretty much the same thing , exercise and get out of the house as much as possible, I know you will be the confident and independent woman you were once, loosing our spouse takes a toll on our body, so feel blahhh.. Thank you for sharing this with us.. I know it makes me feel better...

Good luck with the new med... Lily

Be carefulf the Ambien CR! I took it for a while and had suicidal tendancies while on it.....but don't remember much of the episodes when I took it. I was taken out of my house by ambulance....they had to come in through my bedroom window one time....and I had my husbands best friend "babysitting" me the next time. I remember very little of these instances but I do remember stating that I just wanted to go with my husband!! I am afraind now to even have Ambien CR in the house because once you take one.....you are no longer in control of what you do. I have to stay away from it!!

That is why i am to afraid of taking any kind of sleeping pills..Wow i can't believe what you went through, sorry you had to go through all that....

Was in a conversation with a few ladies who had taken Ambien or Ambien XL. One was OK with it, while the others didn't fair out well at all. Headaches, etc. Thank heavens the doc didn't give me that. He has been both my husband and my primary for several years. My husband had such great faith in him, that this doc was the only one he would see, and he didn't care how ill he was.

Have to have confidence in someone and something. Already, after having two nights of good sleep has made a difference. The anxiety and false fears have disappeared, and I feel a sense of strength, small, but a sense.

Thanks girls.

Now, how to handle the feeling of isolation and being alone. Blaaah!