Welcome to the DS anxiety community.

This particular board is not very active.

I recommend going onto the general anxiety board and checking out ways to naturally reduce the anxiety associated with the trich behavior, actions, and moving forward with that approach.

Until you figure out what is happening BEFORE you reach the trich, you'll often realize the pattern is something other than what you are already aware of.

You are not alone in this.

You aren't alone. I've had it since young when my Dad started molesting me. I was nonverbal. It was a tension reliever. My Mom took me for therapy. It helped and grew back in. But now its 50 years later. Apparently the follicles were weakened. After menopause those areas thinned out again. Plus a job involving overseeing a group of adults caused me to pull some out again. Rogaine foam, scalp massage help. Plus I use this product called Cover Your Gray. Fill-in Powder. It's actually not to cover gray but is a sweat-proof powder that matches your hair. You brush it on your scalp. The scalp then doesn't shine through. It instantly makes your hair look thicker. I also want to encourage you about what you said not seeing this on TV. They use this powder on actors and actresses. They have a special plastic ridged tool to give a more natural looking front hairline when applying it. Its called a hairline optimizer. There is also a loose powder to sprinkle on your bald and thin spots. Personally, for me the loose powder makes me itchy, though its faster to apply. I used the regular brush on fill in powder recently before going to the beach. I took my time brushing it on all thin spots. My daughter couldn't tell even when my hair was wet. Its good. You can search on Amazon if you are able to. I hope this helps you feel more confident. I also wear cute caps on days when I don't feel like doing my hair.