TheSimpleLife is right - keep coming on here for support, advice, whatever - vent vent vent if you have to! that's what we're here for - and we know EXACTLY what you are going through. Good luck to you :)

You are not crazy, I have thought the same things, I have been doing this for ten years now and i am finally 20 days pf. And the biggest reason for that is because of this site. We all want to stop, and we wont let you fall, If you do we wil catch you. I promis you will stop. I will do any and everything i can to help u. Please feel free to talk anytime. xoxo

No you are not crazy - we are perfectly sane - the hair pulling behaviour is strange and it is hard to believe that I do that to myself (well, used to - 4 days pull free today :).
I encourage you to come to this forum daily to read what interests you and to find support and encouragement from those who understand like others who do not have trich can not.
You can stop - we all can . I have stopped in the past for years at a time but unfortunately with some major marriage stress that started about 6 yrs ago my trich came back real bad.
But I am on the road to recovery now, and I feel this time it is permanent :)
This forum has helped me tremendously.
Feel free to post anything that is on your mind, and remember we are here for you. You may also message me any time if you feel inclined.

@the simple life---wow i think the SAME thing. all i think about if i think about getting in the hospital for whatever reason, is that i wont be able to hide my bald spots.

does anyone have this problem that when they have less hair, their hair seems to get greasy quicker?

I have felt this way many times too! I get so down that I just can't handle the pain I have caused myself. I think with trich it is normal to get really down and stressed out and just feel overwhelmed. Keep your head up and keep coming here cause we are all here for you!

thank you guys...

Yes, we are all here for you, and we all know how you feel, cos we have felt it too. Simple Life, I too have thought what if I end up in the hospital and the bald patches are not covered up and the nurses and everyone see my problem, and how embarrassing it would be. ( I know a lot of the nurses)
But one day at a time I am healing and staying pull free - 12 days now, and I give most of the credit to this forum and the friends I have made on here.

Hi!
In my 18/19 yrs of plucking my eyelashes, thoughts of my life ending never crossed my mind. I'm glad to hear you say you'd never do that. I'd love to help you stop but I can't figure that out even for myself but I keep trying. Keep trying to stay busy so you don't pull. Good luck.

wow... I'm glad I'm not alone.
My mind will constantly tell me that if I were dead it would stop.
Then I think, wow, that's a stupid way of handling things.
Yet the thought persists.
At least I'm not the only one who thinks that.

hang in there!! you are not craze at all. I too haver these thoughts but keep coming bak to this forum. Its been one day ive been here and already it has made a world of difference,. do not give up hope. we will support you cos we are all in this together.

Chin up ((: xx