I can say I was that way at one point but am no longer. I came to realize it is just how things are and there isn't a thing I can do about it at the moment. In the future yes, and I use it as a constant reminder of my goal, not a reminder of what I am now. Accepting who and what you are is part of it, and its going to be all about how you choose to think about it. Not sure if that makes sense, but its the best way I can explain it.

I am with Windy with it, it was not until I accepted myself that I no longer cared about how my body looked.

I no longer focused on what I thought should be there but apreciated what was there. In time, I was able to have the body I wanted which ironically was not even close to the one I had been obsessing about.

I had to realize that I was never going to get a new body, that this body was the only one I had, yes I could change it but it was still the same body so it was best if I accepted it then

Another thing, I also realized that it was my own thinking that was getting me depressed, so I stopped.

Last but nevertheless important, once you stopped feeling bad about your body, the comments will stop but if anyone says anything negative about it, it will not matter because your opinion is the only one that matters.

Wolf

Thank you both. I appreciate that a lot. It's taking a lot of work to become accepting of myself. The more I get told "but you don't even look like a guy" the more I look down at myself.
I'm trying to become comfortable with myself, but it's really hard. I'm trying my best.

Pokemon,

When people say things to you that are detrimental and you get upset, then you allow their words to have more power than your own. Why? Do they know more than you do?

I knew I was a guy even when I went to the gynecologist and I was having a pap smear, I knew i was a guy even when I got told I was such a pretty girl, the few isolated times I heard it mind you.

What am I saying? Either you know you are the gender you say you are or you are not, then nothing anyone can say or do will ever change it. It is not the outside that matters, it is how you see yourself that makes all the difference.

Wolf

No, your not alone. From my earliest moments when I was little kid, bathing was an issue. Since I wasn't old enough to even think about working, at the time dealing with kindergarten school, I managed to talk my parents in purchasing bath bubble soap for me. When it cam time a bath, I ran the bath water, and then I added the bubble soap, the bubbles expanded enough that it sum urged just above my waist.

I always had problems with this - I never looked right,... It got worse for me when puberty hit and the chest became obvious oversized boobs,...

Things are a bit better now, but I still have to deal with the lower parts being incorrect. It is hard to deal with at times, but you know, I live in this body, so I am taking care of it, as best I can, in hopes I will be able to adjust things as time goes on.

I can relate. Not too long ago i pulled on my penis until i broke the skin and saw blood. I had to tell my then partner and therapist all about it. I still have body image issues that contr8bute to my clinical depression. Ill probably be this way for awhile or until i start seeing facial changes from hrt.