PJ,

Since we live contrary lives where every step we take before we decide to act on our desires has been met with opposition, it is quite normal to feel the way you feel.

We can change that negative perspective by simply being grateful that finally our journey has begun and make the best of it. As if obstacles do appear, we can stay positive by seeing them as opportunities instead of problems.

We need to remain positive and everything else will follow, I learned that the hard way, for decades I was stuck and once i realized I was the one keeping me stuck, my life changed dramatically.

To be sure, I did encounter opposition and some problems but since I no longer saw them as a communist plot out to do me in, the difficulties became much easier to deal with and I was more open to learning from them.

There is a saying, "When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change" Wayne Dyer. I can tell you, he was absolutely right.

Hope this helps,
Wolf (FTM since 1987)

it kind of does, thanks.

It is very normal to feel a bit hesitant or anxious since this is a major step toward your new life. I felt the same way as you. Letting go of who you are and moving toward who you will become is an extremely important decision. If you are 150% sure that this is the right move for you, then just follow your heart. For myself, I began my journey into my new life and never looked back. I wish you the best of luck.

Congratulations on starting hormone therapy, just try to keep a positive attitude there will always be storms in your life just always hope for the best. My your journey to be the awesome woman you were meant to be is filled with all the positives you hoped for. Good luck on your journey :-)

Best of luck - I hope you have few snags, and all goes smoothly for you.

There likely will be rough days, and great days, as hormones take some adjusting to - but it will all be worth it.

Let us know how the therapy goes. I hear its a long process, but the exact time can differ from person to person.

I'm coming up on my first shot (January 6 2016 if all goes right) and I feel more nervous about it because it marks the begining of change. It is a major step and so it should be expected that one feels on edge about the change that is to come (no matter how slow that change occurs).

I will be here to spiritually hold your hand while you are receiving your first shot, to remind you that everything will be ok. :)