Oh Kim,
Prayers for a clean scan. Of course he is worried. Some men do carry their emotions in different ways.
I am glad you are going instead of his Mom. You will keep his mind on other subjects and that will help.
The two of you have fought the battle together. I do hope above hope you are feeling some better.

Carly I read how you gave some suggestions to hubs for a house plan and he liked it. Score for smart woman! I always say teamwork. Sounds like you further won his heart with his vegetable dinner. Know he likes those vegetables. Good for you on the therapy program for the swallowing. Babysteps my friend. I just feel your strength coming out and desire to beat this coming out. Hopes up you get the med you need.

Me, I woke up very early due to what I call "a goat rodeo" with the four dogs. I didn't get to sleep until 1AM due to pain from a storm system and pressure drop. Up at 5:30 did not make me a happy camper. I was able to get a small nap but still feel out of sorts. We have a friend coming in from Florida on Angel flight for surgery at our University hospital. His flight arrives today. He will be with us through the week.

Empathy I hope you are feeling better. I understand what you are saying about the birdhouse. I bet you figure it out.

love and peace
Hippy

Kim, I so misunderstood when I commented that you should be happy to stay home and rest and not go with Dh. Sorry, I missed something along the way. (Not that unusual) :-( I thought it was just a regular road trip. I am so happy that you are going with Dh to Jackson for the CT scan. I so pray that he gets a good report.

Men always bury their emotions and usually take everything out on the ones closest to them. God bless them, they are sooooo predictable. Luckily we are smart and know them like the back of our hand. They never have a chance. lol.

Hippy, thank you so much for your kind words. I always win his heart with the veggies. Tommorrow is his B-day and I asked him if there was something special he would like for me to cook for him. He just laughed and said no.......I stopped celebrating my birthday years ago. I think if I cook up some more of the okra he will be happy. lol

So sorry you woke up to "a goat rodeo" with the four dogs. (I've never heard that expression before. So funny. But I can see what you mean.)I so hope that you can get some much needed sleep, especially if you have a friend coming in and staying through the week. That can not be easy for you without sleep. I hope your pain has passed and you are a happier camper. Hugs.

OK, as always I say that I hate that I write a book. But today did not end well and I am soooo confused about what to do. I went to the therapist apt. today as planned. Two minutes into it I wanted to walk out. Mind you, he is treating me for a swallowing/eating anxiety. We made small talk (which was unusual, but I think he wanted me to know it was his birthday.) ok, fine.

He asked me if I had my headphones (because I won't use his/everyone else) and I said yes. I am all ready to go. He actually got up and got a ganola bar from the side desk, unwrapped it and started eating it. He was even talking to me while he was eating!! I could not watch. I kept my head down. I cannot believe how rude that was. Even if it wasn't about an eating anxiety, I don't need to see anyone talk to me with a mouth full of Granola. Gross. Plus, he was drinking water from a straw, he knows I can't drink from a straw all the time. I wanted to run out of there. I was sooo pissed, but of course I said nothing. I didn't want to hurt his feelings by saying what I was thinking.

Dh asked me on the way home how the session went and it took me forever to tell him. He was really quiet and that worried me. He is never quiet......only when he is furious. I was so worried that he was going to do something or say something to the dr.

Obvious to say, I won't be going back.

Thank you all so much for putting up with these rants. I love you all.

hippy, i'm so sorry that the storms have been so fierce and weighing on you so much. it's been a rough one with so many storm systems that just hover. then goat herding. poor dear, wishing you some relief. i wish they had hyperbaric chamber salons like tanning salons. i'll set that idea aside for when i win the lottery.

so sweet that you host a friend's son and all get along so well. you're a blessing even when you're in pain.

carly, i don't know what that therapist is - social worker, psychologist, etc, but i'd find the organization to report his behavior. having been a therapist myself, i'm fuming hearing what he did. deplorable!!!
i'm so sorry you're having such trouble finding someone to help you. i'll do a little research later and see if i can help. i have to check to see where you live or pm me if you want. i'm so sick of supposed professionals handling things improperly and unethically.

empathy, i look back more to see what's up with your birdhouse.

so glad to be back home and catch up with you all.

seren, you are a sweetheart. Yes, it was really upsetting and deplorable.

He is a therapist with a Ph.D, Clinical Psycologist. That's what his card says. I am sooo at the end of my rope. I live in Dickinson, TX. Galveston County.

I wonder if they are going to call me and ask if I want to make another appointment. I don't know what I will say.