Hi my name is Jacqueline, i'm fairly new to this site but hopeful that i can find some people to relate to and receive some support if possible. i had anxiety on a very severe level for about 4 years because of a condition called PANDAS. Anyways, the amount of anxiety i deal with causes sleepless nights, constant worrying, avoidance of social situations, and many many absences from school. I am a junior in high school which is a decently important time in my high school career. Because of the anxiety and health problems during the past four years i've missed ALOT of school and the teachers and faculty make sure i don't forget it. At this point i've been placed in a program called oasis, a special program for children where the teachers are more involved personally with you, the classes are much smaller, there are aids, you have the freedom to take breaks and walk around, and there is less work required. At the beginning i thought this program was finally going to give me the break i need and i can enjoy being in school again.... Until i realized this program was not made for me at all. The children it was made for was children with autism, extreme anger issues, etc. Not that there's anything wrong with that it's just that i clearly do not belong there. Being there actually causes me to have the same amount of anxiety that i would have in a mainstream class. They promised me attention and support, i get lost in the crowd of the kids that act out and no one is ever available. One of the kids kept touching me and tried selling me drugs. They harass me about missing school as well. Bottom line is i do not belong in the program. The school has no clue what to do with me so they threw me in there. I don't want to be home schooled because i feel i'll never be able to make it back to school at that point. Plus i have waited years for my own junior prom, its very special to me and it is coming up but the school refuses to tell me for sure if i can go. I am held to the same standard as everyone else, i cant be failing more than 2 classes otherwise i cannot go. So every night i go through the same anxiety, same worries, same stresses. I dread going back to those classes but i just want to go to my prom and i feel like I've ruined my future. Do i go and have anxiety attacks and cry and want to go home or do i stay home and take care of myself and fail and not go to prom. Meanwhile my friends are getting their dresses, going everyday to school, getting their licenses, looking into colleges and here i am unable to do any of those things. Just thinking of trying to wake up and try going to school tomorrow makes my chest feel like its caving in and makes me feel like running away. I'm not sure what to do at this point. If anyone has any advice or even if you took the time to read this it really means a lot thank you!