Yesterday was my 'changing of the Fentanyl patch' day. I put the new one on in the morning and managed to get through a busy morning of work.

Then last evening, something hit me without warning. Sudden nausea, extreme dizziness and loss of coordination. My eyes could barely focus and I was getting frightened. I felt like I could just drift off and stop breathing if I didn't make an effort. I was actually thinking that something serious was happening and someone would find my body later the next day.

I was in bed by 7:30 for fear of toppling out of my chair. Because of my fear, I tried to stay awake. I was forcing myself to be aware of every breath. It felt like breathing in would only happen if I forced myself.

Finally, after struggling to stay awake for quite a while, I felt it was safe to sleep. My muscles had been twitching and jerking so I allowed myself a very small dose of Trazadone.

I slept until 2:00 and woke up feeling rotten. The nausea kept building until I vomited a couple hours later. This part also happened last Friday evening, but without all the dizziness that I had last night. There have been times when it feels like my meds are keeping my stomach from emptying and the result is always losing whatever I have in me.

I know that Fentanyl causes drowsiness, but this isn't a new med for me. I wasn't overheated so that couldn't have been the cause. I wonderif the patch did, in fact, release a sudden larger amount than it should have.

During that period of time, my pain was actually under control! But I guess I'd prefer pain to feeling like I've overdosed. I feel terrible today. My stomach hurts and I can barely drag. I don't know what to do about this event and I'm not sure I want to put the next patch on when it's due. I'm on 50mcg. and I know I can't just stop without a plan, but I also don't need for my pain to elevate, either.

What do I do? This is scary and I'm so tired of it all.

Thanks for reading my long story.
Cherry xoxo