I too lost my beautiful baby boy to sids. It has only been 3weeks since his passing. My boy to was healthy and strong. He could lift his head nicely. I put him down to sleep on his side and when I went to check he had rolled and I found him on his tummy. I didn't know he could roll. The picture of finding him like that haunts me every day. I wish I checked earlier on him or had a monitor. I wish I had put him in his pram that afternoon rather then in his Moses basket. When we found him it was to late. When did he pass is the question I question myself every second. The what 'ifs' r driving me crazy.

He had a full autopsy and they can't find anything. The blood and tissue samples came back normal. How can this be. I'm left with all these unanswered questions. I have 2 older boys aged 4 and 2. I miss him terribly and live with a lot of guilt.

I feel your loss and hope somehow somewhere we will find peace.

I forgot to mention he was only 3 months old :(

Losing a baby is a terrible thing. I recently lost my Mason. We to didn't have any risk factors for SIDS other then the fact that he was a boy. I have no doubt that you have had a long and painful road. It can still be overwhelming to me to think of how much I will miss him everyday for the rest if my life. But it occurred to me that my son was such a blessing when he was here. He brought me so much joy and happiness when he was here. He is a good thing in my life so there's nothing he could ever do that would ruin my life. Yes I'm so sad he is gone but I am so glad he was here. I'm so grateful for the time I got with him cause I know so many other mothers get much less time then I did. And I have learn so much from him. I know it's easier said then done but allow your baby to do great things for you. Don't let him hold you back. They are just to special to ever cause harm to anyone.
I know you will always miss him but I hope one day you can find peace in your heart.

I lost my daughter, Olivia, April 21, 2012 to SIDS. I completely understand how you feel Carollyn re you dont know who you are anymore and that you are just waiting for life to end. I feel like I just go thru the motions of life. I feel like I have lost the meanging of life. I have prayed for peace over and over. I have come to peace with that it wasn't my fault...as I blamed myself for a very long time. The not knowing why my Olivia was taken drives me crazy. I get angry when I see people happy and enjoying life. My life has come to a complete halt and at times I feel like everyone has forgot what happened to Olivia. I have not and at times it consumes my day. Her 1st birthday is March 5 and I am really struggling already. She passed away at 7 wks. I cry on the drop of a dime and wish this nightmare would be over. The pain has gotten easier however sometimes the thought of just not having her anymore is destroying my life.

I lost kayden 2007 to SIDS and I still cant accept he's gone,I know how you feel, as I feel the same and its been 6 years in September 2 days after my 2nd childs birthday also a boy. my risk factors were him being a boy,undiagnosed health issues and also I had to bottle feed him just so he could gain weight.Losing a child is horrific and its traumatic,I couldn't go into my house for sometime due to flashbacks and sometimes I could hear him cry only to not see him and sometimes I think I could see him,mind tricks.

I lost my son, Luc, on January 7th, 2013. I'm not sure if it's the same, I'm a Dad, not a mom, but I understand what it's like to lose a child. I just hope it get's easier. My son was so healthy and well taken care of, my wife was a wonderful mother. But, it still happened and I wonder everyday why.

I also lost my son to sids on January 11 2013. I don't know that anyone of us will ever feel whole again or even safe. I believe when you loose a child a part of you is taken a innocence of safety is lost. When I lost my son I spent a week planning on how I could take myself out of this world I thought this pain was not worth living through luckily I have a daughter and a wonderful family that holds me up when I am to weak to do so myself. The day before my sons memorial I was sitting outside thinking how I barely got to see who my son was and if I barely got time with him, how was I ever going to honor his memory and that's when it hit me I had two choices I could be grateful for the time I had with him and let his death be a part of my story or I could get so lost in grief that his death could become my whole story. since that day I try every day to make a choice that hes a part of me and his death is a part of my story but not my entirety. I am not saying that this will work always or that this thinking is for everyone I am just sharing this is how I get through the day and today is a little easier. but in 2 months my sons birthday will be here and i am scared to death to face that day

I am sorry for all your losses. I lost my son 21 years ago and i felt all the same things , the anger the pain the hopelessness...never getting closure and wishing my life would end so i could be with him. I know it is fresh for all of you but this happened to me so long ago and I am living proof that it does get better. You never forget , the pain doesn't go away but you learn to live with it. I know that sounds ridiculous and it sounded that way to me when people told me that after it happened but years go by and that pain becomes a little more dull as time goes on. It recedes into your memories and you will find that you don't think about it much and it comes to a point where you can look at pictures and it no longer feels like your heart is being ripped out of your chest. I wish that for all of you but you have a hard journey ahead and peace will come , it will just take time.

I just list my perfect baby boy a month ago. I had a hard upbringing was adopted then adopted parents died homeless became a herion addict I was lost. I cleaned up married my soulmate and got pregnant . When I had MatthewJr I was whole and happy for the first time ever. I feel in love for the first time a different love than I had for my husband. I was so happy I spent every min of everyday with him. I am so loss right now the only reason I haven't killed myself is because I have to help my husband and be there for him. We are going to try to have more kids. This is my first time on a site I'm just so lost

The true cause of SIDS https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=F2_jwB6YbN0