I personally... Write. About anything and all of it and it helps me. maybe it would help you.

My enemies in this town are real pleased with them selves too. Smirking away. As I'm out number by their small town's people.

All nightmares eventually end....... when will this one.....

I need to get out....

In a street were all the locals are related in one way or another. And everyone one knows everyone, everyone's business, everything everyone says, does and is.

I'm out numbered by a street full of criminals and their families & associates etc... I feel surround. That's probably because I am. enemies in the houses out front. 3 scum bag brothers to the right and a mother lying and protecting her criminal off spring. Nosy enemies to the left always peeking through windows, gossiping and poop stirring. Enemies out back varied.

Living temp with my ex-brother who is almost just as bad as the locals.... rather than standing up against the locals for an easy life he has friended the local criminals instead..... Just like he did with his bullies at school try to friend them.

Thinking about it makes me more angry.....

And then I feel nothing..... and my enemies look at me with grinning faces.......... because I am out numbered.....

Reminds of why I never wanted to come back this part of the country............. How horrible the people become one of the them or stand against them....

Would not be the first time I been ot numbered by bad people............. far frorm pleasant though..........

Nastiest falsest people there is. Every one stepping over everyone and pretending to be good people for sake of what others may think of them.......

Certain people too are unrelenting at trying to provoke me. The young douche (Shut In) next door who never leaves the house next door. And the neighbours on the opposite side who constantly peaking through the window while I'm in the kitchen. Or spying on me while I'm in the back yard.....

Extremely irritating..............

Sometimes music helps me but still feel lonely..hoping support groups like this will help us all.

I agree with the other posters on finding an outlet for some type of stress relief for you personally. Have you ever thought of some type of counseling to help you through your anxiety?

Unfortunately counselling costs. I'm doing ok for the moment. Just got shouted at again.... Wife and him look for excuses to have a go. I clean up after myself. They leave a mess I get the blame same old, same old....etc

If something is slightly out of place. a spec of coffee on a surface I get shouted out. This was long before my brother has got ill. His wife would have me living on the street. The only reason my brother does not have me living on the street. Is because of the repercussions that would have with the rest of the family....

Working all hours they can provide in order to get out....

I also write. I keep a journal on me most of the time and anytime i get anxious i write in it until i feel better or as long as I have time. I've also learned that the sound of rain clams me down so sometimes I'll pull up youtube listen to rain and write a story of some sort.

That's what we are here for.